Nico's POV
I'm crying.
Again.
There is nothing happy about my life. You know, everyday I pass by happy people-happy couples. All I see when I looked at them is joy.
But then I look at myself in the mirror and you know what I see, I see a worthless, puny, gay, worthless child of Hades. The god of Death. I look at other people's swords at imagine them impaling me.
Sometimes I actually want to join father. I try to cover up my screams, my cries, but they just come out louder. People say that they would accept me, that they would be my friend. They say that I don't try hard enough, that I don't push myself enough. But what they don't know is that, I do try, I try to push myself. But it just comes back to bite me. To stab me in the back. No one actually loves me. Even my own sister left me, my father tried to kill me. I don't know who to trust any more.
I heard a knock on my door.
I didn't bother to open it, they came in. "Hey, Nico, are you alright". I recognized the voice as Percy's. "Go away Percy." It came out of my mouth automatically. I don't know if I wanted it to though. He said something that I didn't comprehend.
My cries were coming out bad now. Tears came out like my eyes like a faucet. Running down my face. You know, I never wanted any of this, it all just came to me. I'm just a monster, that's what I've turned into.
I noticed what people say about me, they say that I'm emo. No one cares for me at all, my cries are so loud that almost everyone would be able to hear them. But for some reason, they don't come. No, I understand why they don't come, it's because they don't care. But then why did Percy come? He wrapped his arms around me and whispered a lullaby.
I tried to get get him off of me, but he wouldn't budge. "Stop Nico, you need someone to hold so you don't slip away".
Somehow my cries came louder, he was humming the lullaby that Bianca always sang to me. I didn't know how he knew the tune or song but I didn't care. I haven't heard the song since I became a demigod.
I tried to be quieter and tried to calm down so I could listen to the song. He was singing it now. The full on lyrics. "I didn't ... know ... that ... you could sing ... like that", I told him in between muffled cries.
"Me either Nico".
"Will you please sing it again?"I asked, so he started singing the song.
"-Close your eyes, I know what you see
The darkness is high, and your in ten feet deep
But we've survived more terrible monsters than sleep
And you know I will be here to tell you to breathe
~Tu sie il mio soldatino
La ragione per cui vivo
non ti scordar di me
Ho veglierò su di ti~
Stumbling lost, last choice of all that you meet
But it's the cost of ruling those 'neath your feet
Paths you've crossed and trust your trying to keep
Your exhausted
Listening for a voice that can't speak
Ma Nico, mio caro
~Tu sie il mio soldatino
La ragione ho vissuto
non ti scordar di me
Ho veglierò su di ti~
So you run, through the shadows you roam
Seams undone, by the love you thought you could own
But he's just one of many you may call home
But maybe someday, the bitter will fade from your bones
~Eri il mio soldatino
Ora un principe oscuro
Ma anche per te, C'E una luce
Che ad un'altra vita ti conduce~ -"
Near the end of the song I was almost asleep. I yawned and stretched and relaxed a little bit more. I could tell that Percy was getting tired too.
I looked into his eyes, he was smiling at me. He put my blanket over me, whispered good-night to me and left. I noticed a note drop out of his hand and land on my covers perfectly. He closed the door and walked back to his cabin.
I picked up the note he dropped and looked at the words blankly. The paper was to hard to see at night.
I almost walked over to my lamp to look at it but I was already asleep.
Well that was my longest chapter ever. 765 words. Like, wow...
