Love kills (eremika)

His gone

Mikasa pov:
As I opened up the letter the soilder gave me my eyes scanned threw the note, as I got into deeper of the note I just broke down and cried and screamed like I was dieing no one dared to come near me or ask what happened,but armin knew eren has expressed his feelings for me.
It's been years I've been waiting for him to say those 3 words "I love you " I just wish he could be here and tell me in person I tell myself as tears fall down my cheeks

ERENS note :

Dear mikasa Ackerman,
I am writing this letter cause we have a big expedition tomorrow and well...I just don't wanna risk it if I don't come back and you get to never hear me say my true feelings for you.
It started 6 years ago when me and my father came to check up on you but as we opened the door we seen something we wish we never saw, but also I couldn't see you there either
My father told me to stay put while he calls the military police but I couldn't listen to him I had to come find you! Something told me I needed to so I did.
I killed those 2 men and you killed one and saved me from death.
When we got outside I see tears comming down your face hearing my father telling me off for going off on my own to save you but to tell you the truth mikasa
If I died trying to save you then I would of died a happy kid
The moment I wrapped my scarf around you the moment I grabbed your hand and told you "let's go home...our home"
Is the day I fell Inlove with you.
It was my job to protect you and I promised to aswell, fighting for you ,and even letting you sleep with me when you get nightmares is how it began.
I missed those days so much but we got older and you followed me into the scouts with armin and you grew stronger then me I wasn't jelous,only reason i always told you to get lost and stop treating me like I'm your brother it wasn't cause of me hateing you, it's cause I feel like I failed my job to protect you! I wanted to be your hero but I realised you only got stronger to protect me so you know I'm safe cause I do stupid things when I get hot headed,
I'm so thankful to have you in my life mikasa without you I don't know where I would be to tell you the truth
I know I fight with you all the time but it's mostly cause I want you to be safe and stop worrying about me,your life is more important to me than my own I hope you can see that.
I never wanted you to join the survey corps cause I know how dangerous it is I never once wanted you to walk into your own death like I am but I guess you always wanna stick by my side.
Sorry if this message sounded so weird mikasa I just wanted for you to know I love you not like a sister but more ...I wanted to spend my life with you and have our own family when all this is over.
And I want you to know all our arguments and all the bad things I've said to you I never ment it I only said it so you can be concern on yourself on the battle field and to go our on your own and forget about me and make it behind the walls safe
We'll take care mikasa I love you and never forget that

Ps: if you got this note mikasa it means I didn't make it,
It's a cruel but beautifull place huh?
Look after yourself and I'll be waiting in the next life
Cause mika...not everyone gets to come home in this life

Mikasa pov :
Ee..eren I loved you to always have from the day you saved me,I don't know what I am gonna do with myself eren? You don't understand do you ...you were my life ! You were the only reason I was still alive.
I loved you and wanted to spend the rest of my life with you even if that meant dieing together !!mikasa says screaming with tears running down her face ...I wanted a family with you eren !!!!!

"Mikasa" armin says
"I'm sorry but eren can now lay in peace knowing he did the best he can for humanity and now him telling you his true feelings before leaving this cruel world"armin tells mikasa

I just can't do it armin ! I can't keep going to training or go to eat breakfast lunch and dinner or even walk past eren's dorm and keep thinking eren use to walk there,eren use to sit here to eat his food,eren was standing there last time we did hand to hand combat,
His gone now armin and whatever memory I have left of him is now memory's ! I wanted more he was my everything I love him he showed me the meaning to live and fight and yet he died out there on his own !! I screamed at armin letting my anger out

3rd person pov

As mikasa was on the ground with her head looking at the floor crying
Armin walks over and hugs her tightly and comforts her with tears running down his face
"Your not the only one who misses him mikasa your not the only one "
And with that mikasa and armin just start crying out loud while the rest of the squad goes in and try to comfort them,
Jean,sasha,Connie had tears in there eyes
And the soilder eren had saved went upto mikasa and hugged her and said "I am sorry,I wish I could of died instead of him, now cause of me you and your friends are suffering"

Mikasa slaps him hard in the face
"Don't you ever ever say that again eren didn't save you just so you can regret being alive" mikasa fires back

"I'm sorry mam" the soilder says now walking away with tears falling down his face ,then he stops in his tracks and calls out mikasa name

Mikasa looked back confused then the soilder told her
Before eren died he told me to tell you to look under your bed in a red box wrapped with a bow ...it wasnt in the letter so I thought I tell you

Thankyou soilder mikasa says as she got up and walked towards her dorm to see what eren means....
To be continued