Even though that evening was cold, it felt like my face was burning, while tears rolled down my cheeks and made their way to my chin, finally dripping into the sidewalks as I passed. While I walked down the empty street the lights were just being lit as the night appeared, I wasn't sure where I was going.
They always told me there was something odd with my boyfriend, that he was acting weird the past few months and he might be cheating, but those words just sounded unreal to me. I was in deep love and was impossible to believe what my friends told me, I didn't want to believe it, because in my head we had just started dating and he was also in love with me, so he could never do such thing.
At that moment I just let my heart lead me to wherever it wanted me to go, anywhere I could feel better and safe.
Everything just kept flashing in my mind. It happened so fast, but it felt like slow motion. I could see my hands reach the door handle and walking into his living room and going upstairs. An unknown laugh coming from the half-opened door - My heart skipping a bit more every single step I take - That image and those words hitting again. Andrew holding someone else in his arms, spinning her around, just the way he did with me.
As I walked myself into the room, their eyes land on me, and the expressions suddenly changing from happy to whatever that was. I didn't want to hear the "It's not what it looks like", so I just turned my back to them and made my way to the front door.
"Darling, you know it's not what it looks like" - Andrew shouted from upstairs.
He got no reply from me. He didn't even try to stop me from going away so he could explain himself. Well, that explained for itself.
I was just running down the street and crying my eyes out, in the most dramatic way possible. My heart was shattered into a million pieces, there was nothing I could do but cry.
I saw myself knocking on someone's door, a whole minute of silence. I then hear a muffled laugh approaching the door. I wiped the remaining tears off of my face as the door revealed a tallboy.
Josh had a beautiful smile on his face, it warmed my heart a little bit. The smile faded and turned into a concerned look. I have no idea what I look like, but I know I'm nearly destroyed. His eyes met mine, almost as if he could read my soul, he didn't think twice before wrapping his arms around me and pulling me in, like he wanted to consume all my pain, I proceed to start crying even more.
His arms felt safe, comfortable, warm, and caring.
My head tricked me into thinking Andrew was the one that loved me, the one that cared about me and would do anything for me, but my heart always knew where it belonged.
We stayed like that for a few minutes, just enjoying each other presence before going inside to meet our two other friends that would make me laugh the rest of the night and making me forget for a moment everything that I went through earlier.
