Looking at old pictures and videos on my phone. Those were great times. Hearing Ryan's laugh in those videos made me feel great, it made my heart warm and no other words can describe that feeling. I instantly put a smile on my face. In the video, Josh put Ryan on his shoulder and was turning him upside down, he started screaming to put him down and then started laughing and chasing Josh around the house.
I missed being around him. He used to make these really random jokes at random moments to make me laugh, put his arms around me whenever I was cold or sad... We had this thing where we would lay on the floor screaming to songs while holding hands. Those were good times.
What happened to all this joy we had? The connection between our souls that made great powerful energy surround us.
It just ended. It just faded. And little by little we were trying to rebuild it, but after the building has already broken apart it's almost impossible to rebuild it with the wreckage. Nonetheless, we were trying, this relationship is worn out, there's no way we're gonna figure this out. I don't want to say goodbye to his bright blue eyes, warm hugs, laugh, jokes. But I need to go before we both end up in bruises.
We never hurt each other before, but our feelings just faded away. It's gonna hurt but imprisoning each other in this relationship will hurt more.
My cheeks are warm and my eyes are burning. Tears are rolling down my face because it is not the first time I have had this thought, this feeling that we're getting distant and our feelings for each other are disappearing, but the fear of going away and never, ever finding love like this is bigger. Still, I better go before I turn the memories of those good times into nightmares.
A/N: hi! it's been quite a while since I last posted. I'm not sure how this imagine went because I haven't written anything for a long time. But I hope you like it. I swear I'm gonna write happy ones soon. hahah :)
