Im here in the hospital. Nagmamadali akong lumakad. I pulled up to the entrance and i walk into the front desk.
"What is the room number of Ken Villasanta?" I asked the nurse
"Mam. Room 306 po."
"Thank you." Di ko na hinintay yung sagot nung nurse. Naglakad na ko papunta sa room ni Ken.
The hallway in the hospital looks like a maze that never ends. Parang feeling ko ang tagal ko naglalakad. Kinakabahan ako. Pero hindi dapat.
Nakita ko na si tita Ana, she's with Keanna, nakababatang kapatid ni Ken. Lumapit ako sa kanila.
"Tita, how's Ken?" I asked her
"Hija.." then she hugged me
"Tita..." nagsimula na ring tumulo ung luha ko.
Nakita kong lumabas ung Doctor sa kwarto. Lumapit siya samin.
"Mrs. Villasanta, your son is stable now, you may see him now. but, i tell you frankly, your son's condition is getting worsed.."
Napahagulgol si tita Ana. Nagsimula na ring tumulo yung luha ko.
"Bakit ganon? This pass few months maayos naman ang kondisyon niya? Nakakabalik na siya sa mga dating activities niya? Then you are here to tell me that my son is getting worsed? How come??!! Tell me..
j-just tell m-me doc." Iyak ni tita Ana.
I dont know what to say...
"He completed the treatment, and yes nakatulong iyon, but it is just a temporary-"
"What??! Anong temporary Doc? Niloloko niyo ba kmi? We take the risk for that chemo therapy kahit nakikita nmin na hindi na nakakayanan ng katawan niya, tapos sasabihin ninyo namin na temporary lang?"
"Look Mrs. Villasanta. I know that this situation is very sensitive to your part. Yung chemo at mga gamot na iniinom ng anak ninyo ay hindi na tinatanggap ng katawan niya. Those treatment is a temporary medication lang, i know how hard for you to know about this, but right now, all you need to do is to pray for him to recover."
Para akong nabingi sa sinabi ng doctor. They continue talked about Ken's condition but i cant barely hear them. Iniwanan ko muna silang nag uusap. Parang ayokong marinig ung pinag uusapan nila. I try to keep a straight face as i walked into the room.
When i finally enter the room, all i can hear is the sounds of the machine na nakakabit kay Ken at yung mabilis na pagtibok ng puso ko. I see Ken lying on the bed, he look so fragile and pale. Ito yung ayaw kong makita, yung unti-unti siyang nahihirapan. He look so hopeless. I slowly walk toward his direction. I sit on the bed side. I look at him and my tears starts to fall. Gumalaw siya, and he slowly open his eyes. Our eyes met.
"E-elysse.."
"Sshhh.. its okay. Dont talk. M-magpahinga kna." But the truth is, i want to talk to him.
"Im s-sorry." He touched my face. I hold his hand. "Im sorry, because you are waiting for me
in the restaurant for nothing. And im sorry if you cry because of me. I-im s-sorry..." he cried
"Sshhh.. its okay Ken." He wipe my tears away. Lumapit ako sa kanya. Pinagdikit ko ang noo namin. "I will always wait for you, remember that,.." he dont want to see me cry, but i cant help it. I hold his hand. "I will always wait for you even if it takes a lifetime." I kissed him on his forehead. Pumikit ako. Sobrang nasasaktan ako. Masakit, pero dapat kong kayanin. Ako naman ang lalaban para sa kanya..
"N-no.. that will be the last time you'll wait for me, because from now on, i will be the one who will wait for you,.." he cupped my face. He look at me straight in the eyes. "..even if it takes forever.. ako naman ang maghihintay sayo. I promised." Then he kissed me.
