The girl stares back at me
Ruined mascara
Oozing eyes
Colorless face
Bitter expression
The girl keeps staring
Drowning in grief
Buried in sorrow
Smothered in neglect
I stare into her familiar face
Her lifeless eyes
Her dull hair
I look at her closer
And realize this girl is me
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Bloody arms
Broken heart
Black soul
Breathtaking agony
She hides the pain
With a reluctant smile
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Fill my head with lies
Sweet fulfilling lies
Tell me its fine
Tell me you love me
Tell me you care
Lies are so much easier than the truth
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Trapped
And the only thing that sets me free
The tiny crimson cuts on my arm
The pain
Sets me free
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My depression hasn’t gone
It still haunts me
The bane of my life
It echoes through my mind
Reminding me I’m worthless
Every night it takes over me more
And every night I become better at hiding it
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The night dark
The moon bright
The stars shine
I walk alone
My ghosts follow me everywhere
Their faces haunt my very existence
I feel their feather-light touch claiming me
Marking me insignificant
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The scarlet red drops
Run down my skin
Painful pleasure
Fuck diamonds
My knife is my best friend
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The terrifying darkness
The undying loneliness
The ongoing suffering
It's swallowing me whole
It's back again
And I can't do anything to loosen its grip
