foreign love

fake love

scarlett
i woke up this morning, feeling awful.

i looked in the mirror and saw my messed up curly brunette hair that needed to be done.

i'm too lazy to do anything today.

dylan and i have been talking about breaking up for a few days now and i'm honestly terrified to see what happens.

i went downstairs, waiting for dylan to text me.

staring at the ceiling, i wondered if i actually did love dylan. we had only been together for less than a month and i've considered leaving him quite a few times.

the only person i could tell this stuff to was jackson. i met jackson and dylan on the same day, december 1st. we met on a snapchat group chat.

jackson has always been there for me, in a way nobody else ever has been. but he's just my guy best friend.

i love dylan.

i haven't met either jackson or dylan in person yet, which scares me. realizing they could just block me one day and i wouldn't be able to do anything about it.

i got nervous and texted jackson. "heyy"

"heyyy dummy" he replied.

jackson is the person i feel like i could tell anything to without being judged. "i'm scared jackson. i cant lose dylan."

dylan is the first guy to ever love me. and even though me and dylan haven't even met in person, i'm terrified of losing him.

"he won't leave. if he does leave you, that's his loss, scarlett. you're an amazing girl who i honestly think deserves better. a guy who will treat you right. not dylan, who only talks to you once a day and his side chicks the rest of the day."

im blushing. why am i blushing? he's my best friend. "thank you jackson :) i just don't know what i'll do without him.." i replied.

"even if he does leave, i'll be here for you. always." after jackson said this, i couldn't stop smiling. why?

2 hours later..

it's been while and dylan hasn't said anything. this whole time, i've been thinking about jackson. i mean he's an amazing guy. he's sweet, caring, funny, smart, ador-

as i was thinking this, i stopped myself. "what are you thinking scarlett? jackson is nothing more than a best friend. he-". i stopped myself again, realizing something..

i think i love jackson..

end of chapter 1 :))