foreign love

torn

scarlett

today was a blur. i went to school, got home and thought of dylan. i think i'm gonna break up with him.. especially if i think i might love jackson..

but jackson is my best friend. i don't know if it's okay for me to love him.. but i know for sure he doesn't love me.

a few hours later..

"hey.." i snapped dylan, ready to end it.

"hey scar." he replied quickly.

god i'm so scared. what if i'm doing the wrong thing? but what about jackson. if i think i love him then i need to go after him. "dylan.. we need to talk."

"what's up scar?" he said.

"dylan, i think we need to break up. things haven't been working out between us and i think i may love somebody else.. i'm so sorry.." i quickly turned off my phone after sending that in fear i did the wrong thing.

a few minutes later i opened my phone again to see a message from dylan. "scar i know things have been a bit rough.. but i love you. and i cant lose you.. please. let's talk about this."

i didn't know what to do. dylan loves me still, but i think i love jackson. jackson makes me feel something nobody else ever has.. "dylan, i think i love jackson. we need to end this. goodbye dylan.. thank you for everything." i shut my phone off and laid down, hoping i did the right thing. dylan didn't respond after that.

i picked up my phone to text jackson that i had finally did it. "jackson i did it. i broke up with dylan."

"YES!! scar you deserve so much better than dylan. he's a dick. you need someone who will treat you right." he responded.

i got butterflies. jackson is amazing.. "thanks jackson. i'm gonna head to sleep though, i have a lot on my mind and i just need to rest a bit."

"goodnight scar<3" he said. what does that heart mean?? probably nothing. it's probably in a friendly way, although he's never sent that before.

i'm too tired for this right now. i'm gonna go to bed.

end of chapter 3