chapter 2

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by nerd_b0i

by nerd_b0i

TW!!! Abuse, Self Harm, Depression

So todays the day i guess. I've wanted to be an idol for a long time. I guess im finally gonna be able to follow my dream.

~FLASHBACK~

april 13, 2014

"YOU'RE USELESS, UNTALENTED, AND A DISGRACE TO OUR FAMILY!*whip slashes on my skin*"

"*scream in agony* FATHER IM SORRY!I DIDNT MEAN IT!"

My father was an angry man. He claimed to love our family, but i know the truth. He would constantly have affairs behind Mothers back, he would beat me and my mother if we did something wrong. the only reason he didn't hit my siblings is because they would hide from him, i would cover for them but in return i got more beatings and torture because i helped them hide from him.

"I TOLD YOU NOT TO GET AN A- OR THIS WOULD HAPPEN. THEN YOU GO AND TELL YOUR MOTHER YOU WANT TO BE AN IDOL. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO SAY THAT. UNTIL YOU ARE 18 I MAKE DECISIONS FOR YOU. YOU ARE, MY PROPERTY AND WILL DO AS I SAY.*another slash of the whip hits my skin* IF YOU EVER SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT AGAIN I WILL NOT HESITATE TO THROW YOU OUT.*punches me in the face*"

"I'm sorry father. I will not do it again."

~END OF FLASHBACK~

I woke up sweaty and crying just like every day. My mother came in the room.

"Sweetie are you okay? I heard you scream and cry in your sleep again." She sounded concerned and sincere. My mother is a kind woman. She has a big heart and cares for everyone, but she forgives to easily.

"It happened again, the nightmare is back. He's back." I said about to cry.

"It's okay baby. You're okay, I'm here." She lifts my chin to look at her. "I made breakfast, comedown when you're ready. And don't forget to pack you're moving into the dorms today."

"Okay okaa-san (お母さん means mom in japanese)."

I had quite a bit to pack but had done most of it the night before. The only thing left was my closet, make up, and plushees.

I took my shower and changed into some comfy clothes for moving. A.K.A. sweat pants and a hoodie. And got to work packing.

It felt weird packing again since ive only lived in korea for about 2 years. But im excited. A new chapter is opening for me. And im ready to take on any challenge.

It didnt take long to finish packing but it was tiring. I put all of my things on the moving truck and left to the dorms.

~Author~
IM BACK!!! I know this is shit im sorry. Still have writers block but i felt bad leaving you guys hanging for so long. Im sorry again. Hopefully updates will be coming more often on all of my works. Im the mean time please comment some ideas for this and tell me how y'all are doing. Im always here if anyone needs someone to vent to. Also should i start a discord server for updates and ideas for books? Please let me know and i hope everyone is doing well.

Best of wishes
Your author Fealix.