Story of me

Relization

Lucy POV

It has been 3 years since I joined the guild and 3 months since Lisanna came back. It's not that I don't like her I love her Lisanna is just like her older sister sweet as a peach and makes great milkshakes but it seems that her and NATSU have well a thing. I love natsu and I don't know if he loves me but I really hope he does.

If not then I just want him to be happy. I walked into the guild this morning and saw natsu run to me with his big toothy grin as normal. "Hey Luce guess what?!" He says. "What is it natsu." I say with my normal happy voice. "Lisanna is joining the team!!" He said.

Honestly I was shocked I didn't know how to feel about that. "So could I ask a favour of you luce?" He said. I had a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. "Sure natsu what is it?" I said. "Could you let Lisanna go on this mission with us instead of you I want her to get used to the way things are." He said. My heart broke. "Sure natsu but....." He cut me off with a hug. "Thanks luce your the best!!" He said as he ran to the team.

It didn't seem like much what he was asking but we're a team were supose to stay together. I walk over to Mira at the bar. "One strawberry punch spiked." I asked and she looked at me wierdly. "Is there something wrong lucy? You don't like liquor normally." She said as she handed me my drink. "Just team natsu is going on a job with Lisanna and it's not like I hate her I love Lisanna just its wierd you know?" I say as she smiles. "Your just nervous trust me it isn't anything big. Is there anything else you wanna talk to me about?" She said obviously referring to natsu. "Well I don't have a few more things..." I start as she pulls out a bottle of vodka. "Will we need this?" She says as I laugh.

"Maybe." She puts it away. "So what's on your mind lucy?" She asks. "Well you see I like natsu and I'm not sure if he likes me.." I start as mora does her fangirl scream. ( we have all had those moments ladies) "I knew it so when are you gonna confess to him?" She asks. " that's the thing Mira. I like him but he only thinks of me as a nakama." I say as her scream comes down.

"Oh I see.." She says. I drink my spiked punch. " I don't know what to do could you help me.?" I asked as she rubbed her head, "well I hate to say this but I don't think you should tell him now." She said. "You need to be sure he likes you or it will mess up your friendship." She said. She made sense.

"And I was thinking..., you may need the vodka for this one." I say as she takes a drink of vodka. " I was thinking of leaving the guild for a bit." I said she just looked at me she obviously didn't get it. "Sure take some time off go to the spa flirt with some guys..." She starts.

"I don't mean like leave like that." I said as she smashed the bottle on the table and pointed the broken glass at me. At this point everyone was watching. "LUCY HEARTFILLA ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT LEAVING THE GUILD!!" She said. I had to be honest knowing Mira had a demon takeover side I was pretty scared. "Yes I was just to train." I said as she put down the glass. "You can train about be apart of the guild." She said with a serious look in her eye. "Yes but the place I have to go to train is well out this territory and into our rivals territory so I may die with my guild mark." I explained. " we're are you going to train." She said.

" in sabertooth territory." I Said. "But lucy I don't want you to go I mean anything could happen you could fall in love and with your mark off you may leave to sabertooth." She said. "Mira face it I'm weak. I couldnt fight anyone and natsu always saving me I couldn't do that to him." I say as she slaps her hands on the on the table.

" lucy you aren't weak you won 1 game in the grand magic games last year you took out one of the orasion and sais and so much more! You aren't weak." She yells. " that's were your wrong. I had help threw it all and I barely won that match. Mira don't you see this is for me. I need this and whatever happens along the way I promise I won't forget the guild. I love everyone here. Natsu has Lisanna to take my place and to help him. Levy has her boyfriend gajeel and since jelall got realized Erza has him and Gray has juvia. There isn't a place for me anymore." I said as she smacks me.

" don't you dare say that you are MENT to be here you belong here and damn it lucy if I'm gonna let you leave!" She said as master Makarov walks out. " what is going on here Mira!" He asked. " I'm just telling lucy that she can't leave the guild." She said blankly. He walks down to us. " dear child why would you want to leave the guild after all we have been threw was it something that happend has someone hurt you." He asks. I stand up. " master no one has hurt me I was to leave the guild to train. I owe it to myself and others to become stronger. I want to train in saber territory so I can't be with the guild." I say. He sighed and takes my hand and removes my mark. " MASTER WHAT ARE YOU DOING!!"

Mira yells. " this pains me lucy I love you as if you were my own child but if this is what you truly want than it can't be helped just once you are done with your training please come home. And stay away from Sabres promise me that Luce." He says as I smile "I promise master." I say as I hand things to Mira. " theses are letters make sure they get to the owners." I say as I give her a hug. I run off as she yells back. " Lucy what is this scroll another message?" She asks. " no that's my will If I die make sure you don't tell anyone till nightfall..." I say.

Mira and master are now freaking out " DIE WHAT DO YOU MEAN DIE!!!!!!! LUCY GET BACK HERE." I hear as I run away I go home a grab my saving jewels so I have some funds for my trip. I grab a bag a small one full of a few things. Hair brush tooth brush tooth paste 4 sets of clothes and a picture of my guild. I shove all that stuff into my bag and leave a note for the land lady. I run to magnolia station with my 600,000 jewels and a chance I will make things better for myself.

--------------

Thanks for reading