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Ok so this is another idea that popped out of nowhere:) I was watching a movie with someone suffering from amnesia so I guess I was inspired. Oh, and there's a huge lack of knowledge in medicine but anyways...

I honestly didn't think it'll be this long, and it ended up being way longer than what I had intended to do and perhaps I should have made a series instead? Anyhow. It might feel a little bit rushed at the end since I wanted to finish it up you know?

I don't know how I should feel about it but here you go, I really hope you like it 'cause I mean, I spent like a whole lot of time on this monster one shot and yeah:) I really hope you enjoy, feedback and comments are always welcomed:) Just for the record, there's 5841 words:)

~Lili~

It was 3'o clock in the morning, Louis sat by the bed, surrounded by plain white walls, staring down at Harry. The curly lad was laying peacefully, tucked under the covers, yet Louis couldn't blink away the tears that kept forming in his eyes.

The younger boy was currently in a coma, lying lifeless in an hospital room while Louis was healthy. The guilt in the bottom of his stomach was killing him inside out;

If only he hadn't gotten mad at Harry for such a stupid reason...

If only he hadn't yelled...

If only they hadn't fought...

If only he hadn't lose his temper...

Than, perhaps his boyfriend wouldn't be in an dull hospital bed, he wouldn't have gotten into a car crash; a drunken driver wouldn't have crashed into him and he would've been pretty much conscious and smiling by Louis' side. Those thoughts kept lurking in his mind, swirling in circles and he couldn't say otherwise, because it was true, it was all his own fault, he brought it upon their relationship and he could do nothing to undo what he had done. He should have trusted Harry no matter what... All what was left now was in Harry's hands, whether he woke up or not. That mere perspective kept Louis sane, knowing that Harry would wake up, that perhaps he'll be forgiven for being such an idiot.

"Come on, love. W-wake up for me yeah?" Louis choked out, fighting his tears, threatening to fall any second. "Y-you have to wake up Haz, y-you have to." He pleaded, his soft voice above a whisper, clear as glass. He gripped Harry's hand as if his life depended on it with one hand, rubbing soothing circles onto his skin, trying his best to wake him up, while the other clutched on the piece of paper his boyfriend wrote to him. He bit his lower lip, trying to stop it from quivering. He felt weak and he doesn't reckon letting sleep fall upon himself but soon, his eyes felt heavy and he tried to forget everything just for tonight.

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[Day 1]

Louis woke up the next morning, the sun shining through the window, across the curtains. He felt disoriented, unsure as to why he felt so uncomfortable but as he looked down to his hands, everything came rushing back. His fingers were still intertwined with Harry's, rubbing slightly. His eyes fell upon his boyfriend's pale face once again. His heart dropped when the thought that he may never wake up again. "I-i'm so sorry Haz... It's my fault that you ended up here. I should have trusted you from the start yeah? So please just wake up... Come on, love, please?" He begged, his voice wavering as tears formed in his eyes.

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The following week went on without any improvement. Louis felt his heart sink a little deeper each day, looking at Harry. He was drowning himself in a pool of guilt, crying so much that he wondered how he still had tears left in him.

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[Day 7]

The seventh day, he woke up to the sound of the door closing. Confused, he looked up blinking quickly. He was met with Zayn, looking worried. "Lou, it's been a week since you'd been home." He stated, concerned for his friend's well being. "I-I can't leave him... What if he woke up and nobody's here?" Louis said, his voice wrecked, his blue eyes roaming the younger lad's face once more. "He'll be fine Lou. Just take care of yourself. Harry wouldn't want you sick you know?" Zayn said, trying to convince Louis. "Yeah..." He whispered, his voice barely audible.