read out of love

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Growing up, I loved reading. But then reading became something really toxic for me. My parents would always say to me, "read when you go to bed, it will help you sleep". well, it didn't. I got so caught up in the books that I would start reading, and a couple of chapters later I would look up and realize that I had been reading for hours. What should have been 10 minutes, quickly turned into 3 hours. And even when I saw the time I would continue to read. Because I needed to know how the story ended. So growing up I practically trained myself to ignore the feeling of sleep, which led to me struggling to fall asleep . So I forced myself to stop reading before bed, to try and get a healthy sleeping schedule. And it worked, but I also lost the love for reading. I haven't picked up a book in a couple of years. Only when it was a school assignment. but even then, the feeling didn't come back. and it hurts, but I guess that's what growing up is like.

As a kid, I would lose myself In those books. If I were reading harry potter, I would be at Hogwarts with them. And this would happen with all the books I read. I would visualize them in front of me. And if they described a place I would see it as if I was there. But sometimes the wording would be too difficult for me to see the space, so I would draw it on a piece of paper. I loved doing that, It was as if the place existed. As if I could roam through the halls, and see every corner. I believed, I think that is the problem. I don't believe anymore.