Haikyuu x Male Reader Oneshots

!# Tsukishima

Angst/Fluffy ending

Scared/sad Tsukishima x sad/scared, third year reader

*Kei and you are both third years, there will be maga spoilers (who becomes captain and their jersey numbers and such)*

Also... Kinda ooc (out of character) Tsukishima.

Key: (h/tt) = hair/texture or type. Like curly or straight, or textured or soft or rough, etc.

Artist Credit: @ medd_uwu on Twitter

!TW!: Homophobia, mentions of s.h through over exertion, anxiety and insecurities mention. (Pls let me know if I should add more)

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Tsukishima POV:

A small peck with our lips with the empty panging of my heart made the darkness under my eyes feel heavier. I knew we couldn't do much more so close to others, but wouldn't it be nice, even for 2 seconds.

"I wish I could keep kissing you," a small whisper came from the (taller/shorter). It was the same for me. It would be a dream to kiss (M/N) without the need to be worried of the slightest sound or having to plan out every detail. I wanted to tell him that it would happen soon like he wanted to make it happen soon. Yet the thought of anyone even remotely suspecting us made me sick to my stomach.

What would happen to us? To him? To me? To our futures?

Thoughts kept roaming my mind and breaking the walls I've tried to build against them. Soon they began rotting my brain from the inside out. But the ringing of the warning bell snapped us out of our trance, so we looked at each other in solemn silence before walking away. I knew it made (M/N) feel worse just like it turned my mood sour with the reminder that our time together was being limited by whatever greater force out there.

Anxiety shot through my veins as those walls crumpled even more, even if this breaking down and rebuilding became a routine over the years it still drove me to the edge. More thoughts and memories of laws, comments, videos, people, and more played over and over like a movie that's being dragged on far too long. I didn't have control over myself, and that kills me.

It didn't help that the teacher noticed halfway through the lesson that, even though my eyes were on the board, I wasn't paying very much attention. Her scolding rang through the classroom and a small scowl took place on my face as I heard muffled snickers from classmates.

What made it unbearably annoying and anxiety inducing is the flash of concern from Yamaguchi. I grinded myself about not telling him of my lack of attraction to women, but the fear of being cast away from him, from others close to me, took over instead.

So I just acted like I didn't see anything, and prayed for lunch to come quickly.

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Lunch, in fact, did not come quickly. But it did finally come.
With a heart finally relieved of some tension I quickly tidied my desk up before rushing to the roof.

(M/N) POV:

The clicking of the roof door opening dragged me out of my trance, soon being able to see Kei's blond hair peeking around to make sure nobody else is around us. Once his head turned the corner to our 'secret' spot he let himself smile and breath more easily.