Journal Of A Depressed Black Girl

ENTRY 2

Hi my name is Ella, I'm 19 and a Ghanaian. im kinda plump short and wear glasses. I want to share my story but unfortunately mine is a sad one but I'm hoping for a happy ending. Well my love life isn't what I always expected. It's like I am cursed in that area because all the guys I always end up with just take advantage of me,leave and pretend like they never knew me and that was the order of the day. I am the emotional type so it always broke me when the leave but I put on a strong girl front so that no one would question my love life. Then one day I met this guy. Let's call him Prince and I fell hard for him. He was a true definition of my dream guy. I always professed my love for him but then he was always reluctant so I decided not to do it again. I would always lie in bed thinking if he felt the same way for me and end up crying. It was like my daily routine. i am the kinda person that's afraid of losing the people I love and afraid if rejection. I was so wanting him to feel the same way for me but yet still I was scared. i wanted to talk to him about it but scared his answer would be in the negative so I didn't until I gathered all the courage I had, picked my phone and texted him how I feel and hoping we were in the same page. I saw that he had seen the message and I started to shake when he was typing back. The reply came and I was to scared to read it so I sent it to my friend and she later told me the reply was positive. He said he also had feelings for me!! I cried... Tears of joy actually. Here I was thinking that the guy I loved with all my heart didn't love me back but I guess I was wrong. story doesn't end here. After that profession of love,things started getting weird, he texted me less,stopped calling to check up on me,hardly picked my calls and all that. Now I don't know what to do, whether to confront him because I don't want it to seem like I am being too clingy and I always end up crying again just thinking about it... Has love ever made you feel so broken before? ReplyForward