"Where is Mr. Right?"

Chapter 1

I am Ronnie, and I’m a kind of girl that no one can understand but myself. I’m usually quiet, I have friends that are limited. I only show my cheerful side to those who deserve it. I’ve been hurt so many times but tried to pull myself together and just continue life. They say, “Everything happens for a reason”. And — I still don’t know the reason yet, not now….People doesn’t really know what truly matters in life. For me, the simplest things in this world are the hardest — hardest to realize, and hardest to find.

Above all the challenges in my life, I began to think…Is there that “someone” who will stand by my side ’til the end? That someone that will cheer you up and make you smile whenever your sad. That someone who, just by seeing them will wash your pain away…And that someone surely doesn’t exist. Lol. I believed in love for the longest time, well, when I was still young, I had a crush on someone. My love is always one sided by the way, I never tried to ask, nor to show that I like the person…because of one reason, I’m afraid, I’m afraid to get hurt. My crush always enlightened my day, ‘cause we were still kids that time, we used to play at the park with bunch of kids. He is older than me, yes. And that time, I had a bad eyesight and I used to wear eyeglasses for Christ sake..In order to see him, I then thought to look at his flip lops every time he’s passing by (‘cause I’m near sighted and I can only see colors from a far). He used to wear these clogs-looking yellow flip lops that were really famous back then. We were getting to know each other that time, but it seemed that he’s not my Mr. Right…My family had an outing that day and when we got home, an awful news surprised us, especially me. My crush died that day, that was year 2003, which was 12 years ago….I won’t tell how did he die but I was badly hurt, first love never dies, right?? But it happened to me, he died.