"Where is Mr. Right?"

Chapter 3

Ever thought of “I should have gave that guy a chance, not him” before? I did once, and that guy is now my bf (literally, my best friend). He used to court me but I never gave him a chance, being friends is better than being lovers….You can keep your friend forever, but not your lover. My life continued, it took me time to move on, more like years…I am thankful though, I have my big sisters in higher year that always look out for me. Little did I know that my next nightmare is on its way. I met this guy, he’s a vocalist and he has a very good voice. I don’t really know him before but we had this practice for a street dance competition soon, and he is also a participant like me. I can’t remember how did it started but I found myself texting him, but of course, he did the first move. We then got close to each other, not knowing what he really is, or thus, what I’m putting myself to. He was the ex boyfriend of one of my big sisters in our school, and the war has began. One of my big sisters was named Steph, and when she knew that his ex, named Nico was into me, she started texting him and ordering to leave me and be with her again. Isn’t it amazing?? Too much to have a happy ending, but worst comes to worst…It was kind of a torture to be with him really, his friends (girls of course) began texting me and told me that Nico is not serious about me. They even told me that he’s courting one of them and I am too stupid to not believe in them. Well, I’m in love with that guy, when he said no, then I believe him. I trust him too much that it scares me. We’ve been together for 4 years, and all the surprises and sweet gestures were from me, not him…It’s funny how you can love someone so deep that it kills you, not knowing if he really does love you back…He’s not even greeting me in our monthsary, anniversary nor during my birthday. I don’t know how did I manage to stay in that relationship for so long, we even had LDR ‘cause I needed to study away from my hometown. To begin with, my family doesn’t like him at all, there was a time that my Mom made me choose between my family or him..Guess what? I didn’t answer and they sent me to Manila so I can stay away from him…I still didn’t let go, why? because I was blinded with my love, too much love can kill you says the song…Finally, there was the time that my Mom and my family just agreed of me and him but everything became a blur afterwards. They still don’t like him and I just don’t know what to do but to fight for him. During my college days, almost every weekend, I go home just to see and be with him…Then, he became cold again, doesn’t even text me, doesn’t call me or what so ever…I even asked him why is he doing that? he responded, “the hell you care”. That was my turning point, I’ve had enough. I decided to finally let go of this nonsense. I finally did it, not even a week, just days, he got a new girl…

My story continues, and now, nothing gets clearer, always a blur. On our last semester before we graduate, we should have an OJT and our school’s lucky enough to have it in the USA. At first, I don’t really want to apply, me and my Mom planned to have my OJT in Europe instead. But my luck was not at its best, the slots were full so at the last batch of applicants, I tried to apply and it will be in Palm Beach, Florida. Just one try, I was accepted and I felt really lucky about it. And yes, I met new friends and a lot of foreign ones..I got close to a Hungarian couple and their names are Mon and Dara. They are the sweetest friends ever!! I was with them almost everyday, and a person added up later. His name was James, combined name of die and go. haha! And yes, he liked me. I was too hesitant to go near him ‘cause I don’t want to trust again and be hurt, but Mon and Dara talked to me about it. So, I tried, we were happy. He accepted the fact that I am innocent about everything. Most guys won’t like that but he showed me that he is sincere. He was sweet, always there for me, we always watch movies with Mon and Dara in their house and just hang out. He called me “Princesa” and I called him “Prince”. Everything was just perfect but James needed to go back to Peru (yes, he’s peruvian) ‘cause they were only allowed to stay here maximum of 3 months. After that? He just vanished like a cotton candy on your mouth. He’ll only contact me when he needs something, like email our General Manager about this, and that…I actually told him that I love him before he left and he didn’t even responded. Again, that killed me big time..

They say take chances, don’t be afraid to take the risk. How can I do that again? Tell me how? I might be the stupidest person ever or rather, the stupidest person alive..Well the thing is, time really heals wounds. I then transferred to our next property which is in Maine. It was actually different than Florida. There, it’s more peaceful and relaxing. A little bit historical but the view is breath-taking. We met few Filipinos who worked there before us and that enlightened us. Everything was really fine ’til I met this guy named Gerard. He is friendly but mostly quiet all the time. I was actually afraid of him, that was my first time to be a server so I struggled a little. We became friends and later on his gestures was sweet. He was always texting me and helping me out every single time. There was once that he needed someone to talk to and I went to talk to him, he told me his problems and he even cried. I felt his pain really, and I just comforted him. That’s the only thing I can do. I can’t really tell if a guy likes me or not. Maybe they are just being nice to me, and to everyone. He acted that he likes me but never told me he did. So I was really confused. He left Maine after the season ended earlier that us, he was texting me that he misses me. He was actually updating me of whatever’s happening with them. I was in VA back then, with my relatives. On his way back to the Philippines, he was so worried that he might fall asleep and won’t wake up before boarding to I was talking to him continuously until he boarded. It was like 3am in VA when I fell asleep and he tried to call. Lol. It was just like that since then. Maybe we were just close friends who supports each other. I don’t really know, I did fell for him but tried to stop it as soon as I felt it.

I went back to the Philippines and stayed there for 6 months. I marched in our graduation even if we were a year late. It felt really great! The story’s not ending there. We were absorbed in Maine so we came back April 2014. We were so lucky and excited about returning to the US, and yet another story will be told………..