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Life has become a nothingness. I don't know what to do. Nothing can fix or help me. Except one thing. It's killing me. It's ripping me to pieces. All I want is that one thing. Nothing else. I don't care about anything else. I'd give up anything and everything for it. The urges. They are strong. But I don't know what to do. I can't stop crying and no one can help me. I don't know what to do. Why can't this fucking thing be fixed!? It's all I want. What do I even do?