republictale ( my first fanfic)

ch 9 forgive yourself and forgive him

After the emotional moment with Sans she told him that she needed some alone time and that she forgave him. She honestly did not know what to do , she didn't want to go to her job because she knew that Sans was going through a hard and depressing time. She didn't want to make things worse for him. She knew that due to the state he was in it was best to get not involved.

But maybe if she tried cheering him up things would get better .......but would they........ she started banging her head against the wall with tears of frustration pouring out her eyes. Her mind was so conflicted on what to do all she could was just sit down and cry.

She asked her self "Why , why does have to be this way?" The most darkest thoughts sank into her mind as she contemplated about this. How many people would die, what people would she lose. Those thoughts lingered in her head for a while.

She started to question her sanity. Maybe she was taking things too far.

She was pretty sure by now she was not in a good emotional state. So she decided to walk to her bathroom and look herself in the mirror and tell herself to grow up and get out there and show who's boss. She went into the bathroom looked at the mirror and did a sigh of bravery. Before she stared shaming her reflection she was surprised by how messy she looked. Her hair was very greasy and had the good old case of bed head and the most surprising thing of all was the fact that she bruised her head while banging it on the wall. It was not time for looking at how messy she looked she had to resume what she was doing.

She looked in the mirror and sighed. " Hey me , I know how conflicted you are right now , but you have to just man up and put all those dark and sad thoughts aside and show life who's boss" after she told her refection this she felt proud of herself, well in an accomplished way. At that point she felt pretty chill .

She went to her couch and sat back with a smooth smug look on her face. She felt like she did a job well done even if it was completely unrelated to what she trying to accomplish. With all the intense emotions drained out of her she soon got dragged off into sleep.

It has been a couple of hours since she was asleep. She had decided to head to work since she really did not know how long she had been procrastinating to her self . she got on her uniform and walked confidently out the door. While this was happening she noticed something strange on the side walk. A large golden arrow with a sharp silver edged at its point. She picked it up since she thought it help give answers on what the pink substance was. She looked back up with the sun glistening in her face and walk confidently towards her destination.