The Push

Chapter - 1

Chapter - 1
The Meeting
Well what happens when you unlock the chapter of college you feel on the top of the world. That feeling of freeness is there.
I felt the same on the very first day of my college. I have had commerce stream in my +2 and got sensible percentage to get admitted in best college of Delhi university.
I remeber when I  got the result i told my parents about my percentage all they did was a nod and smiled well-done was said and thats it. My family has always neglected me thats what is expected when you are a unexpected child and there is already two children. You are the fifth wheel in the family no one needs your opinion and require your assistance. That was the case with me. My elder siblings were loved dearly and mostly
I was neglected. I always felt inferiority complex becouse of my looks. My siblings get the great genes of my father long and perfect. I got the genes of my mother side little short, normal looks, whitish complexion. When i was small i never bothered with my complexion becose at that time there was no sense that you are judged due to your complexion. My dadi used to call me 'kallu mai' and lough at me. My elder sister was called ' pari ' and brother was
' goru ' i never understood the meaning of those words just the love with which they were said. Later when I got the meaning it made me really sad. I realised very soon that if i want to get loved by my parents i have to become perfect. Parents love perfect children who listen to them and dont bother them unnecessary. I did the same in my life.
I used to voice my opinion but no one paid any heed to me. I feel that my parents are not attached with me the way they are with my elder siblings. So i feel bad about it. My introvert nature dont help me either. I dont have many friends only few friends are there those are like me. We talk about study and latest books. We dont consider ourself cool but average beings. So as soon as I arrived delhi the air hit me hard. Its too blurry and hot place. I get my stuff down from the bus. Ordered ola to get me to college hostel. Ola arrived in ten minutes. Driver helped me put the stuff on the ola. There is do much traffic here. I watched everything with wonder its my third time in delhi. First two times i came here with family know alone. After a long drive i arrived at my hostel. I got myself enrolled there was so many girls gathered there talking some were roaming here and there and there are parents too who came to leave their girls to hostel. I felt a pang in my heart by seeing them. I felt sad that why didnt my family came with me to get me settle down in this hostel. With my watery eyes I sniffed and sign my mame and get the room keys. I got the room 30 last one on ground floor. I drag my stuff in the hostel room. It was a small room with joint washroom two small iron beds were there and it was in pale white color. I toom the bed near window. I can see garden from there as it is the last room on the ground floor there is window on both sides in middle and in my left side. Its cool I called my mother after 8 rings she picked up the phone.
' Haa paunch gayi ' she said in a huff
' hanji paunch gayi maa room mil gaya h ' i said politely
' acha acha ok' she said in a hurry i hear  her shuffling things.
' kya kr ri ho maa ' i asked her
' kaam aur kya ! chal ja abb apna kamra set kr le bye ' she said and cut the phone.
Bye i said to myself maa didnt even talked to me properly. I felt very bad about it.
The thing is my parents never bother about me they already have perfect kids i was just an unwanted one the one kid who is accidentally born. For whom no one want to take responsibility. It hurts the most when i see my parents pamper my older siblings and neglect me altogether. I needed them to love me but they never did. This thing hurts me every day and makes me feel sad.
I busied myself with the setting up of my room i put on some music on my mobile and connect bluetooth headphones. I love music and it helps me forget things. After putting bedsheets , pillow cover and curtains of all the same white color. I was singing along with haley my favorite singer and placing my clothes in almirah. I sway left and right along with the beats and keep doing my work my back facing the door. When someone tapped my shoulder i jerked and yelp at the same time. I turn around and saw a girl who was speaking something and smiling shoeing her perfect white teeth. I removed my headphones and smiled to.
'Hi' i said politely
'Hi, I am Akshi, i am your roommate whats your name ? she said and smiled
' I am Madhavi ' i said and shook her hand.
'  I love your voice yrr you sing like a siren its very intoxicating ' she said with a smile on her face.
' Thank you , umm '  i said i dont know what to say being an introvert doesnt really help so i just smiled at her and she winked at me and i think she understand.
So we talk and get to know each other she is from chandigarh and i am from Ambala.  Only an hour diffrence in our homes. Gladly we have opted for same stream. We fixed our rooms set our almirah and put wall papers.
' I am tired madhavi  yrr ' she said tired.
' Me too ' i said and streched my hands.
We fell asleep and I  woke up  around 7 in the evening.
' Mady wake up ' said akshi yes mady is me she has given me a nick name.
' Uhhhh umm ok ' i tried to move my body and akshi laughed at my attempt.
' you are so cute mady you know that ' she said and shook me i laughed at her assumption too.
'Now move your lazy ass we need to go to college mess to eat dinner we slept through lunch and i am so hungry right know ' she said and tapped her tummy.
we laughed some more and after combing my hair and putting my snickers we went to college mess. The mess was so crowded we stand in the que that was moving very slowly. Akshi kept talking about her family and friends and soon we started the talk on fashion  and I  really love this topic. We took our plates fill it with food Chapati, dal, sabzi, papad, salad , achaar and gulab jamun i got one somehow akshi got two and she smiled from ear to ear. As the mess is combined all the students boys to come in the mess. We sat ourself on a table we sat facing each other because other two chairs were occupied by two boys.
' look Mady I got two gulab jamun ' akshi said happily
The boy sitting beside her look at her plate
And pounce on her plate he took out his spoon and spooned the gulab jamun and put it in his mouth akshi screamed so hard everyone stopped what they were doing and looked at her.
The boy sitting beside me was the only one who dont bother looking up.
' How Dare you eat my Gulab Jamun ' said akshi in a threatening tone.
The boy looked at her face and keep looking for a minute,
' you had two i took one ' he said calmly and winked at her and people around us laughed.
Akshi smacked his head and boys head rotated
'' BC '' he said and laughed
' It was in my plate I took it from there how did you take it from my plate '' she said and give him a look.
' well how did i take it ' he said and with his spoon took her second gulab jamun too and put it in his mouth.
This time Akshi screamed murder and shook him so hard our table shook and start smacking him again and again and he took her jabs laughing.
' I hate you ' she said to him and stopped hitting him. I was too shocked i have  never seen people do that. It was weird and different.
He smiled ear to ear. Akshi resumed eati g ignoring him completely and i did the same. The guy sitting next to me cleared his throat, and i looked up. He look at me and smiled. I smiled back. He was too handsome his face has prominent features sharp cheekbones dark drown eyes hair were messy but clean and little stubble on face.
' Hey ' he said confidentially
' hi ' i said shyly
' whats you name ? ' he asked
' Madhavi and yours ? ' i asked
' vikarant ' he said and smiled
' which stream ? ' he asked
' Bachelor of Business Administration and yours ?' I asked politely
' same' he said and resumed eating
I dont know why but I felt happy that we are in same class. In the mean while akshi and vikrant to talked and the boy who eat akshi dessert also joined.
His name is keshav who is also in same class. They all talked and talked ignoring me completely. As if I dont exist in that place. I tried to join in the conversation but my words were completely ignored.
I dont know why people ignore me. As if what I speak dont interest people.
Today I  meet few new people and it didnt go as planned. They just ignored me. I feel I am not good enough to talk to thats why people dont talk much with me. I did what I always do best. I stayed silent and listen to them. Even though I feel like conversing with them. But there disinterest in me stopped me from talking. This is jow the meeting went.
After dinner akshi and I came back to hostel room and slept. I wish next day goes better with heavy heart I tried to sleep.