Loving Her Darkness

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*baby crying*

Immortals think that being a child is easy. But not all times it's true.

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When my Mother, a Goddess of Farm fields, gave birth to me, my Father is so happy, a God of Dept.

They gave me name and called Sivana, Goddess of Darkworld.

I have black curly, blue eyes, and very pale skin. My nails are so different from other children. The color of my nails is black.

I was so alone whenever other immortal children bully me because of my different color.

Other children have plain color of body. If their skin color is pale, their hair will be too. If their skin color is dark, their hair is dark too. But me? I am so different.

Father died, Mother remarried.

I love my second father. But he never loved me the way I respect him.

I spent my life with my first Father in very short time. He taught me how to fly and walk for the first time. And I have never seen him smile brightly whenever he is teaching me before how to fight like him.

My second father wanted a new child, a son. But my Mom The Goddess cannot give him a son, so he pretend that he loves me like his own daughter.

But I was wrong....

I grow up, I was 99 year old but my height is like 9 years old mortal girl. I see my Mother being happy with my second father. But she never asked me if I am happy around him

But I am happy for her. My second father is helping my Mother in farm fields, helping her to give blessings to the farmers as he is summoning rains to make other plants in Earth grow up faster with the help of other Gods & Goddesses of Sun.

While they are so busy doing their jobs as Gods and Goddesses,  I am still here, giving myself challenges to find out my real magic.

I tried what my Mother can do but whenever I touch a rice grains, they are turning into a black rice grain.

I tried to swim underwater to test my breathing and eye sight but I failed again.

I tried to give love feeling to angry couples but they ended up separated. I am seeing their children crying when their father is walking away, like they don't even care about their children's feeling.

I came home hopeless as my Mom wondered about my challenges as my second father always telling that I am like a mortal teenager in the Earth who did nothing but to waste my time.

All of them see me as different. Because of my pale skin and dark hair, for them, I am not belong here in this sky Kingdom.

Until one night.....

He entered...

He put his hand to my mouth, covering it.

I tried to scream but my voice cannot produce any noise.

There, he boldly said the truth that his power is not all about summoning rains but to seduce women to be his wife.

He did something horrible to me.  But, he is different from other Gods. He cannot make children except if his wife is married to him or the woman he is with in his bed agreed to what happened.

What he did ended up like nothing but, the memories will stay with me forever.

My whole body hurts, especially my legs. I feel like my tummy was ripped off.

I cried silently, never tell anyone what happened to me.

So, I walked away and start to live in dark forest on Earth

The moon is shining down with blue beams. Whenever I'm walking, I feel like someone is following me.

I found a road in the middle of the forest which many light posts were standing here. I saw a smoke coming from afar so I decided to go there.

While I'm walking, I hear some blue in black glowing fur followed me.
She is chirping gladly when she see me.

This bird sits down to my shoulder and sleep silently beside my neck.

For few years, I stayed here without anyone knowing that I'm a Goddess.
Not until Goddess Almaha the Mother of all Goddesses and Gods knew that I am no longer a virgin Goddess.

I was delivered back to sky Kingdom and made me point out the God who did love with me.

I pointed out my second father but I cleared that he forced me, not in my own intention, that he took it without my consent.

But Goddess Almaha cursed me for being disobedient descendant. So, she gave me power that whoever men or women look into my eyes, they will stop breathing and they will die.

They throw me down to Earth with black wings that I can hide. But it doesn't change the fact that even my Mother never believed me.

So....

One night when all of them are quiet, I tried to find my dark forest but I was so sad when I saw it burned down.

Even my animal friends were burned into crisps. I thought that they burned it down so I go back and killed my second father.

When Goddess Almaha found out what I did, she gave me a black cloth to cover my eyes so that, my eyes won't kill anyone while I'm looking at them except if I remove it away. She also said that she cursed me not to punish me but to make myself strong because an immortal like me doesn't need an immortal man to be a Goddess.

I started my journey in the Earth to kill anyone here.