RUE

The Forgotten

Me
2:45PM, Feb 23

Bi, you're going home satin?

Him
2:46PM, Feb 23

Oo

Me
2:48PM, Feb 23

U brought your car?

Him
2:52PM, Feb 23

Yeah y?

Me
2:53PM, Feb 23

Great! Sabay tayo? :)

Him
2:59PM, Feb 23

May exam ako ngayon.

Me
3:01PM, Feb 23

I can wait.

Him
3:02PM, Feb 23

May exam nga ako.

Me
3:16PM, Feb 23

Ayaw mo ba?

3:19PM, Feb 23

Nevermind. I'll go home alone. Bye ingat

Him
3:24PM, Feb 23

Ah ok. Ingat din

...

I returned my phone in my pocket pagkatapos kong masend yung last text ko. How could he be so cold and dense and stupid and a fucker!

Burn Herfranta. I've been loving you for five years now, but you're making me want to stop doing it.

I stood there in the bus stop. Pagkarating ng bus sumakay agad ako. Good thing konti lang yung tao, I search for a comfortable seat.

I cry. I wipe. I cry. I wipe. Repeating it a hundred times.

I love Burn. I love him since day one, I gave him everything, wants and needs. I must say he was a good boyfriend to me.

Until something went wrong.

He used to be so sweet, and concerned guy. Pero nung nag start yung second sem, biglang naging cold siya. I can sense it, kahit di niya sabihin, kahit na masakit tanggapin para sakin, pero alam ko...

Pagod na siya.

I told him about it, pero palaging wala siyang sinasagot. Wala na siyang time for us, for us to spend together, for us to talk. Eh halos wala na nga kaming communication eh. Pagod na ako eh, kasi paulit-ulit na lang. There was a time na sinabi niyang busy siya at inuuna niya yung priorities niya. But I remain to understand him, kahit na pinamukha niya na sakin yung fact na wala ako sa mga priorities niya. Meron pa yung moment na sinabi niyang ang kulit-kulit ko na daw. Text daw ako ng text. Pinapaguilty ko daw siya everytime na di siya nagrereply kasi sinisendan ko siya ng crying emoji.

Can you blame me? When the only thing that I wanted from him is a piece of his time.

A month ago, sa sobrang pagod ko na sa kakaintindi sa situation namin, I decided to end it. I broke up with him nung may chance na magkita kami.

And guess what he told me.

"I don't want you to leave me."

Yan lang sinabi niya. Naisip ko agad, bakit ang selfish niya? But dahil sa mahal ko siya, at dahil umasa akong pwede pa, na baka aahon pa kami sa situation nato, I gave him a chance.