Never Give Up

Should I give up?

You let me go when I was 12
And she broke me down
I am in a living hell
You hurt me and pushed me
you broke me and abused me
you showed no love yet wanted some for yourself.
You aren't my father you broke me
And you.
You berated me until I could no longer feel.
And when I started to gain back control over my own world,
you pulled me back in and hurled slurs at me suffocating me until I gave up on fighting you.
Should I give up?
Do I give up on fighting for my life?
Will you give me air? Is it recycled?
Can I make my own?
Should I give up?
I watched you drive away and claim that I never cared for you
or loved you
and you might be right because I had cared for you but I feared you most of all
And mom you held a pin up in the air waiting for me to show you my accomplishments
and you pop my balloon saying to stay down on the ground because I'm not good enough
and soon
You try to control me.
He scared me
She belittled me
Do I give up?
I'm tired of the controlling and the scared feelings I have for you two
She looks at me like a loon
and he looks at like a new doll
that he can draw on
to make me look the way he wants.
I'm taking back my life for this is mine.
I lived in fear
Should I give up to get out of here? For good.
Nobody wants to love me
And I tell people I'm just misunderstood
Because it's true.
Who will love me when you won't?
I try to hug you and you say don't
Someone has to love me right?
Right?
It's easier this way
I'm kind of sorry for this to happen this way
But it'll help everyone in the end.
It always does.
So...
this is me.
And that is you.
That's it.
I've finally given up
You can no longer have me

I'm free.

Cause I gave up...

On you.