"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" You and Lilie screamed at each other as you met back up at the contestants house at the exact same time. You ran to her and she hugged you.
"I missed you so much!' You screeched.
"Oh god (Y/N) I've missed you too!" She shouted back.
The two of you took your things and went into the house, you took a deep breath and headed off to your room. You put all your things back. You knew that you would only have today and tomorrow to relax, performances were starting and so were eliminations. You wandered around the house wondering if the boys were here yet.
"(Y/N)!" You heard a familiar brittish accent and felt someone hug you from behind. "HAROLD!" You shouted back and hugged him. "How was your christmas?" You asked him. "It was beautiful (Y/N), Just beautiful." Harry replied. "Where are all the others?" You asked in confusion. "They're upstairs packing. "Harry led you up to the room where they stayed.
"(Y/N)!" They all shouted. Niall came over and gave you a welcoming hug, all though it was a bit more amourus than you expected. He fixed your bangs and you started to smile. "Niall!" You said with a large smile on your face. "Look there's something I really want to tell you (Y/N)-" Niall started but was quickly cut off with an anouncement for everyone to head to the xfactor studios. "We'll continue this later." He said as the two of you headed over to the studios.
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It's week one and your performance was in just 7 minutes. You stood back as you watched Cher Lloyd perform, then One Direction and now it was your turn. Your stomach was twisted but you knew you had to throw all of your nerves away. You gave the performance of your life and when you walked off stage you were rather pleased with your performance. You were greeted at the end of the steps by Niall giving you a hug and telling you that you did amazing, and you returned the compliment. Just as you two started talking this girl walked up to the two of you and started flirting with Niall.
You got really hurt because even though he wasn't your boyfriend, you had feelings for him and you thought that there was a chance that he may like you back.
You secretly slipped away and went into your dressing room. You started crying and you just got bad thoughts in your head, like you were hearing voices of girls bullying you back in school. Then you started thinking of your mum and how unfair it was that she had to leave your life so soon. You were so close with her and just the thought of not having her with you killed you.
You decided to take your pain away the only way you really knew how. You noticed a pencil sharpener on the table in your dressing room. You took it apart and used the sharp part. You started cutting yourself as you sat in the corner. You cut so deep that there was so much blood pouring out and it wouldn't stop. You started to feel light headed and woosey. You kept fading in and out, razor still in hand blood pouring down. You heard a knock on your door but you were so weak you couldn't get up and all you managed to let out was a grunt. Niall walked into the dressing room and ran over to you when he saw what happened, and then you faded out.
