Why does it hurt?... Why do I miss him? we weren't anything...just two people that casually fucked. nothing special...why did he call me cute. why the hell did I believe him!? he didn't mean it at all! he was just leading me on..after a month I still sit down and cry over him, I like to think, I cry because I hate him...but In reality, I still love him...he was my comfort space...I trusted him...I let him in...like I let a certain person in...both of them hurt me, yet I want them to reach out.
Luis, I let him in from kindergarten till 5th grade...we were like siblings, anything we did it together. no matter what. After Luis, I told myself I wouldn't let anyone In like I let him, and I didn't not even My lovers...till he came around...he made me feel special he called me cute and shit, I let him in. the worst mistake ever...I got hurt again, hurray..
