Remind Me About Your Life

I'm Thankful for..

I'm jealous with my brother. I know it's not the right thing to do, considering how close we are and how much we went through. But hearing about his plan for the next half year makes my heart burn. And I can't help but feel jealous.

He is on the rise this year, what with how successful his wife's business is, and how he started to get a good job just last year. Not to mention how he already has three children who will run your house amok. His family looks happy, and perfect.

In comparison, I am still a little family of two, just me and hubby. Sometimes I still wondered about the miscarriage I had last year. We still live in our rent house, and waiting until our house finished building. Which should be in December, at the earliest.

Shouldn't be jealous, I reminded myself. Even though I'm only human, and of course feeling something is normal. But I realized that yes, I shouldn't be jealous. This feeling remind me how I should be thankful at what I already have.

And it's a lot.

I'm thankful that I have such an amazing husband. Who loves to snuggle with me, who could be a steady rock when I feel struggling. Who is kind, and passionate about family. Who doesn't care that we still only a family of two. Who bring me peace when I'm sad.

I'm thankful that we are not in such a debt we had to struggle financially. That we still have a roof over our head, that we can plan and build our own home with our own money.

I'm thankful that I still have a close friend, who I can talk to about everything, and she the same.

I'm thankful that my family is still intact, even with the cracks and problem that we have to face. And I also gained a new family from my husband's side, with a wonderful and considerate mother-in-law.

I'm thankful for having a smooth life almost throughout my life. Graduated from famous schools, had nice friends, memorable teachers.. Easily gained an amazing husband. Ha!

My life is just on standby right now, stagnated juuust for a while, but I should be sailing again soon. And that's also something to thankful for.

When life get on the right track, I can also plan like my brother. No need to feel jealous anymore. All I need to do is just to be patient, and all's well again.

:D