CRAVING

1

Years count, and the memories still with him, the scar it left on his wrist, a reminder of his growing obsession towards the (h/c) man.

The white snow fall gently on the land, the Christmas eve felt by everyone who can afford happiness in their life, smile on their face, houses full of warmth, children exchanging gifts and Christmas cards, family enjoying the peaceful walk with a few shopping bags at hand, enjoying the cold season with the presence of someone.

On the other hand, homeless people huddled together in the dark and lifeless alleys, hoping to have at least a little bit of warmth just to survive the bitting cold of winter. Some people who's kind enough, lend a hand to help, while others choose to not care at all.

White covered the whole street, colorful lights and beautiful decorations give life to the whole surrounding, such a lively sight to see.

Standing in front of the bus station, a tall man awaits, his white figure blend with the snow, black hair in a bundle of mess. She said she's going to fetch him, planning to spend the whole Christmas season with him and her family.

Wireless ear pods on, aqua regia been on loop, it somehow helps lowering his anxiety down. His eyes close as he let the numbing cold and the tune calm his agitated nerves.

After a few moment of waiting for the red hair woman, she finally arrived. A Sian FPK 37 Lamborghini stop right in front of him. It open as soon as it stop, and the red head woman step out the vehicle, her wide hips swaying as she walk, covered in whole black from head to toe. A custom-made ring on her finger, composed of three kinds of stone. diamond, sapphire, and ruby shine brightly under the light. Don't even ask him about the small pair of earring she's wearing, or the winter boots she paired with her clothes,

"Look who's having the best time of her life"

She excitedly told him, a shit eating grin on her bow lips.

"It's me bitch! Gosh, I love my brother so much, he's such an angel for giving me this baby"

And she patted her car dramatically, long nails tapping the material, before blowing it a kiss.

She's full of drama, and he's here for every bit of it. 

"Who's friend are you again? Sorry I forgot"

She gasp in response, her eyes rolled as she saw him teasingly smiling at her.

"The fuck you talkin' bout man! Of course I'm yours"

She exclaimed, puffing her cheeks out.

"I'm not friends with some guy's sugar baby, sorry"

And he cackled, tugging gently at her hair.

She snorted at his claim, "it's a sign hun, come and join the fun, I know you'll enjoy the ride. I knew a few who's willing to spend millions upon millions just to have at least one night with you" He growled at her, "please leave me alone, I really don't know you" he said. She laugh, hand on her mouth,  her long painted nails touch the location of her heart, "me? Oh no, sweety, you know me so well"

"Just hop on the car woman" he jokingly snarled,earning a few playful groans from her.  "aw man! You're such a douchebag" she whined

"And yet here you are, loving every piece of it"

Alex whistle at him, completely amuse by his display of dominance. 

She proudly jump on the driver seat, her long red painted nails tap the window elegantly, giving some ASMR vibes.

He sigh, questioning Gods, why him out of all the people? Can someone just please, take this tigres out of his side. He'll gladly give the leash to someone else.

After a few rounds of bickering , she finally decide to drive.

Who knows that she'll choose to annoy the living hell out of him. This woman doesn't know how to speak human, like a rabid dog barking along the way.

"ohhh that one is hawt"

"Damn that booty, I really want to slap that butt"

"Acckkk bitch, look at that man on your left, such a fine ass"

She even pulled down the window only to shout "hey baby, call me" to a complete stranger.

"Hey ma'am! Do you have plans tonight? I—"

He gladly smack the living shit out of her before pulling the car window up. Torn between leashing all the pent up annoyance, it laughing his ass out cause she's acting out of range.

He took a deep breath, before shouting atop his lungs. Hindering the woman speechless

She pull over, eyes wide as she meanly stared at his direction. It's just the tow if them in an awkward silence.

And then she speak

"I'm doing a live stream just so you know"

His violet eyes widened in realization. Almost banging hi head on the dash board, it's the most humiliating thing he'd ever done in his whole life,

"Please drive"

Was all he can say, she tilted her head back before whizzing out, laughing like she's on drugs. If he doesn't considered her as his friend, she'll be six feet down below by now.

Her annoying laugh still lingered, clutching her stomach as they both exited the car. And all he can ever do is look helplessly at Alex. "mean" he murmured, "sorry ok? I'm sorry, you're so cute I can't stop bullying you" he scowled at her.

She give the car key to the awaiting attendee. He took a couple step on the marble stairs before the double door burst open.

He freeze in place, eyes lock on his descending silhouette. His breath stuck on his lungs, panic completely written all over his face, startled at the sudden appearance of (Y/n). He's clad in white, (h/c) tuck inside his Benny hat, (F/c) phone on his ears , those captivating (e/c)  on something else.

He jogged to the stairs, as if in a hurry, his eyes focused on the slippery surface, Alex called him, but it seems that he's way too occupied by the person on the other line.

He stood silently, watching him go, the slight joy few moments ago got replace by the pain and numbness that hunts him since the day they met.

He shakily calm his breathing, before averting his gaze, lips between his teeth, "come on man" her voice turn soft, and he  force himself to move, upon reaching the front door, he look back once amore. How much he wish he didn't.

A brown haired woman got down from the vehicle, adorned by the finest clothing and accessories, the Japanese woman smiled at (Y/n), he watch him open his arms wide before enveloping her in a loving hug.

Does it hurt? So much so.

Those hugs received plenty of kisses,

It does hurt, however, he can't take his eyes out of them. As if his brain keeps on relishing every pain, making him aware of this unacceptable reality.

It's been a years since he fell in love with this man, it's been a years since he accept all the pain he received from this unrequited feeling of him, its tiring, so damaging. 

Guess love made people do crazy shit like accepting all the pain

"Toshi" Alex called out, her gaze full of worry, he smiled bitterly at her. Pushing himself to go past the door. Urging himself to move.

"She's staying with us until her Christmas vacation ends, if you're not comfortable with that, we can always stay at my own home"

He shake his head, earning a few warning look from her, "I'll be leaving soon" she sigh, "I'll celebrate with you" she insisted, in which he's grateful for.

"Come on, I'll pack my things after dinner and go home with you. We can celebrate Christmas at yours if you don't like going to mine"

He smile genuinely at her, she's the only one who appreciate him the most, the only one who stay no matter how crazy he is, he might be complaining about her hyper self, but he's not willing to exchange her with someone else.

She chose his crazy ass as her friend so she's stuck with him.