Into the Abyss of Forever

Chapter 1

"When did you realized you have already fallen?"

I stared blankly at the wall in my room after reading the question.

Paano mo nga ba malalaman na nahulog kana pala? Paano mo masasabing mahal mo na ang isang tao?

Is time the measurement? Or your efforts? Or your words? Or your actions?

People say that love comes in the most unexpected time. You would not even realize it. It is just like a thunder striked even though it's a sunny day.

I heard this somewhere. Sometimes, you are not inlove. You are just inlove with the thought that you are inlove. I guess, it make sense.

Love. Is just a word but with thousands of meaning.

I read again the question.

Napaka hirap pag usapang pag-ibig na ang topic. I am always lost in words. Gusto kong sagutan ang tanong, with not less than 500 words ngunit ang nasusulat ko palang ay "When I .. "

Too much for brainstorming.

I get up and fixed my disheveled hair. It is just shoulder length, highlighting my collarbone. Naka sleeveless top lang ako at naka dolphin shorts.
Sashaying my way to the kitchen, nakita ko ang isang article about the latest issue in the business world.

" The wedding of the decade" I read out loud. It is an engagement party between two of the most influential families in the country. I stared longer at the woman in the photo. She looks so happy.

Sana all.

Nilakumos ko ang dyaryong hawak. Why would I waste my time reading such news, anyway? It won't do me any good.

Instead, I made myself a cup of coffee. Yung matapang. Para naman magising ako sa katotohanang, hindi na pala ako. Charot.

I sipped a little in a cup of coffee and dwell into my thoughts about the past.

"When the time's right, I'll marry you". He stroked my hair and placed it one side, so he can rest his head at my shoulder. His favorite move.

Ngumiti ako sa kalandian nya. It is so sudden. I'm here in my favorite place, with my favorite person and probably my favorite moment in life.

"Do not promise something you can't keep. "

He lift his head and stare at me.

"Bakit? Do you not wish to marry me? Aren't we on the same page? May iba kana bang gusto? Tell me. " He pouted, making him look like a lost puppy.

"You're the most annoying person I've ever met pero sige dahil cute ka ngayon, I'll let you marry me someday."

"You do know that, that don't make sense right? And anong cute? I ain't cute. Do I look like a puppy to you?"

I chucked at his remark. I'll probably never get tired having this kind of conversation with him.

I was lost in reverie and didn't realize na kanina pa pala may kumakatok.

"Wait lang" Damn. Alas 8 palang ng umaga.

Hindi na ako nagulat sa nakita ko pagkabukas ng pintuan. Syempre di pinapalampas ng mga chismosa ang pagkakataong kagaya nito.

"What took you so long to open? Ang init dito sa labas. Here." She gave me a paper bag with soju in it. I almost rolled my eyes. Ke aga aga eh.

" I inom mo nalang yung sakit. It won't take forever, anyway. You'll find someone better."

I doubt that.

"Hindi ako affected sa balita. " I said to avoid unnecessary questions.

"The news was only this morning, tapos andito ka agad and may dala pang soju. Ang totoo, anak kaba ni Marites?"