i feel like i could really love sid. but i know he could never love me back. so i just stay staring at him though i know he fancies michelle. i want to be lovely like her. but instead i don't eat. i have a headache, i think about od all the time, my parents don't care. i want to just leave this shitty town and go somewhere. i want to eat and not regret it. sid is walking over to me at the lunch table i'm at all alone. i can tell it's just for the pitty. he could never really care. he asks me how i am. i say "oh i'm totally better, remember." lying. then he asks "how do you do it?" "do what?" i ask. "you never eat anything your parents must notice or something." "sid, i like you. so i am going to show you." i start showing him how i avoid eating and talk and cut up all of my food. he suddenly says "it's a bit fucked up though." "what?" "you know it's fucked up your not even eating." he says. i hate him for this. "well it kind of nobody's fucking business, and it's not exactly like anyone cares." i say. "-i care" he jumps in. i just stare speachless knowing that he cares about me. tony comes to the table and sits right next to sid. he's such a prick.
