|| Don't Let Go ||

|| Heartbeats ||

It was so silent in the room... it felt weird but all you wanted to do was stay by his side until he was released from the hospital... The doctor had told you that unfortunately his stomach was shrinking so he was unable to eat food on his own, they told you that he now needed a feeding tube in order to keep his food down... He unfortunately threw up his last two meals, He couldn't keep his food down anymore which upset you even more... you started to realize how serious this all actually is, you started to get worried because there was nothing you could do, there was no cure and there was no helping him.... unfortunately as of right now the only think anyone could do was stand by and watch, as much as it hurt you and his mother it's all you both could do.. you both comforted each other.

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It's crazy how he was just His usual happy self just last week but now everything is changing... you started to realize how fragile someone's life truly is, you now knew that life is short especially for the sickly.. it's worse then you thought, you never thought something this seriously would happen to your best friend... let alone your boyfriend, you were literally watching him die in front of you and all you could do was stand by and watch him suffer... it broke your heart even more as the time passed and passed... at this time in the day visiting hours were now coming to an end.. you kissed his forehead then very gently and lightly pecked his soft cold lips.. it gave you the chills

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Y/n: "Goodbye baby... i'll see you tomorrow.."

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You sighed and quietly left the room, you went home and sat in your room for the rest of the day... your parents informed you that you had to go to your sisters house to babysit for the weekend so you couldn't visit Issei at the hospital at all over the weekend. it upset you so much and all you could do was curl up in a ball and cry yourself to sleep... You didn't want to risk leaving him here all alone while you were so far away in the other side of Japan...
you emailed the hospital and explained to them that you can't visit over the weekend, you gave them your number and email all in that email you sent.. you requested that they'd contact you and his mom right away if anything were to happen to him while you were gone. they responded by the time you woke up agreeing to your request.

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You felt so bad and terrible that you had to leave him at the hospital with no one but his mom visiting, the team couldn't visit him since they were so damn busy with volleyball preparing for an away game over the weekend. it killed you to know that you couldn't be by his side anymore, you wanted to cry and scream at the top of your lungs but you didn't want to concern your parents too much. they already knew you were upset having to leave Issei, and they knew you were stressed too because of finals coming up next week.. the last thing you wanted to be doing was babysitting for your sister all the way in the completely opposite side of Japan that Issei is in, you didn't want to be so far away for so long but you unfortunately had no choice.

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Your heartbeats more and more every time you thought about Issei, you tried so hard not to think about it especially not right now since you were in the middle of driving... you didn't want to risk getting in an accident and injuring yourself let alone another person.. you forced yourself not to cry but you were still worried about Issei no matter what you did to keep it off your mind, nothing worked... nothing at all