What Would It Take? (Fell in-love with an assassin destined to kill me)

Part 1: It's dark but all I see is light

I woke up with sweat dripping from my face and my pj's soaking wet, even though it's cold outside and my ac's at 16 degrees.

I had a dream, a normal one, and when I say normal, a really bad one. Bad dreams are part of the job.

I can only remember the last part of my dream. It's dark but all I see is light. We're surrounded with bright lights and I am about to pull the trigger,

while crying.

Yung iyak na gusto mong ilabas lahat, gusto mong sumabog pero pinipigilan mo kasi alam mong one wrong move would end everything.

Pigil, to the point na halos wala nang lumabas na luha.

Which is weird because pulling the trigger is perfectly normal for me. Don't get me wrong, I don't kill people. In fact, i'm a protector of the people. A guardian, but not officially. Well, sometimes.

Okay, back to the dream.

Panaginip lang pero I can feel my hand shaking, I can't see the face of the target because everything's blurry. Maybe because of the tears.

Pero, kinausap ko sarili ko. Sabi ko, I can't be distracted, kailangan kong tapusin ang trabahong ito, dahil ito ang makabubuti para sa lahat. Ito ang makakapagligtas sa napakaraming tao.

While I was contemplating and relaxing myself, I heard a voice. Then tears began to flow once again. I was so mad, I didn't know what to do. The moment I lowered the gun,

I got shot.

I heard two gun shots.

I can still feel the pain kahit na gising na ako. Kaya siguro pawis na pawis ako paggising kasi sa panaginip, ginagawa ko lahat para lang patuloy na huminga at gumapang.

I wonder why. Basta alam ko may importante akong kailangang gawin.

But then I woke up.

The dream, even though common, is intriguing. There were a lot of mixed feelings na ramdam na ramdam ko. Parang totoo at hindi lang panaginip.

Hmm. Weird.

"Wow, anong dinner mo kagabi bakit maaga ka yatang nagising? Ni isa, wala pang nag-aalarm sa 15 na alarms na sinet mo."

My mom, she's sweet and supportive. She's three in one - mom, sister, bestfriend.

"Good morning, Mom. I had a bad dream."

"Aww, kawawa naman ang crabby baby patty ko. Kaya pala pawis na pawis ka kahit na ang lamig lamig naman. Come on, bangon ka na dyan, magbreakfast na para may energy ka."

Yeah. She always comes up with these weird nicknames for me. I'm not even sure where she gets those from. Parang ang dami nyang bala, never ata sya umulit ng nickname for me.

"Si Pops? Will he be able to drop me off?"

"Use your car nalang daw. May important business daw sya eh"