Regrets (EreMika) [2021 Discontinued]

Chapter 3

MIKASA'S POV

I'm walking home from school with Sasha since we live in the same block. We've decided to go home since its friday and it's weekend

"Bye Mikasa" she waved as she went to the right side of the road where her house is. "Bye" I waved back and continued walking on the pavement

I got home seeing uncle Kenny talk to someone, a woman who seems to be in her 60s. "Mikasa! You've gotten so big since I last saw you" the middle aged woman approached and hugged me

"Mikasa, this is Kiyomi Azumabito. Your mother's aunt" uncle Kenny introduced her. "Who?" I asked quite confused. I did not know nor remember this woman

We sat in the living room drinking tea and talked about me and my mother's side of the family.

I never met most of my relatives from my mothers side. Likely because my mom's family is in Japan. I've never had contact with them since my mother passed seven years ago

"I'm taking you in, dear. You will be moving and be living with me in Japan." Ms. Azumabito said. "Pardon?" I nearly choked from my tea.

Aunt Kiyomi sighed. "It has been seven years since your mother passed. We are hoping to form a bond with you since we have failed with your mother. We are hoping to bond and spend time with you more"

"I'm sorry but I am not going. I'm staying here." I firmly said. I am not leaving Eldia. This is my home. This is where I grew up. This is where my friends are, my family.

"Mikasa dear, I know this is hard to process but I hope you'll consider coming. We already lost your mother and we can't afford to lose you too."

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I am beside the corner of my bed, staring at the walls and thinking about the discussion with my aunt Kiyomi.

I don't want to leave. I don't want to leave my family. My friends.. I'll miss them and I will be homesick. I don't want to go

I heared my door make a creak sound. It was uncle Kenny. 'Mikasa"  he sat beside me and sighed  "You have to go. You can live a better life there."

"I stand by what I said. I am not going. I don't want to leave" I responded

Uncle Kenny sighed. "Mikasa, youre half Japanese. You should atleast acknowledge your own culture, your mothers heritage of you" he said

Relooking back my childhood. I realised I haven't really experienced my mother's culture.

"It's okay if you dont want to live there. At least just study there for college." he added. "I can comeback?" I asked.

"Of course you can" uncle Kenny said. "What made you think I was gonna give you away forever? Theres no way I'm giving you up"

I just wish my parents were here.. My life would be different if they were still alive. I miss them.. I miss them so much...

I hugged my uncle as I sobbed. My uncle was the one who raised me and my cousin. He was the one who fed us and loved us, even if he might not be good at expressing his love.

Uncle Kenny left my room and made me think about my decision. Maybe uncle Kenny's right. I should go to Japan to acknowledge my blood. Plus, Maybe it can also help me move on and start a new life.

~•~

"You're going to Japan? You're leaving?" Armin asked and I nodded. We were at our school practicing and planning for our graduation next week.

I will not be able to attend our graduation because of our flight. We can't fly another time after graduation due to extreme weather issues.

"Why?" Eren asked. "I'll be studying there for collage. My aunt wants to spend time with me since she's getting old"

It's been a month since my break up with eren. Were in good terms now. He talks to me like nothing happened between us, which makes my heart slightly ache.

"When will you comeback?" Jean asked. "I don't really know. My aunt is the one incharged." I answered

"I always forgot your Asian Mikasa" Connie commented. "Do Asian food taste good?" Sasha asked as she ate her chips

"I don't really know.. i don't really remember." I answered. The last time I ate my mother's cooking was when I was still 10 years old.