Noah's POV:
Same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now
She stayed over almost every night. We would watch Grey's Anatomy until 1 am and then cuddle 'till we fell asleep. But now she is gone. And it doesn't feel the same without her. I still watch Grey's Anatomy every night, just to feel closer to her. Because it hurts. It hurts that she is not mine anymore. And i should've realised sooner how much she means to me. Then perhaps she would still be in my arms now.
Our song on the radio but it don't sound the same
Yesterday i drove to a friends house and our song came on the radio. It was our Song. Everytime we listened to the song, we would sing and laugh and dance. But without her it doesn't feel the same. Without her it's just a normal song. I always thought the song was special, but now i know that she was the one making it special. And I'm so dumb for letting her go.
When our friends talk about you
All it does is just tear me down
'Cause my heart breaks a little
When I hear your name
Our friends introduced us. We have the same friendgroup, we always used to hang out together. Now I can't be in the same room with her, so I just hang out with our friends, if she is not there. But they talk about you. One time i was on the toilet and when i came back i heard them talking about Dixie. About Dixie and her new boyfriend. When i heard her name, i started to cry. I always thought Dixie was a special name. I always loved the name Dixie. But now i start to cry everytime I hear it. Because I know, she'll never be mine again.
It all just sounds like ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize
That I should've bought you flowers
And held your hand
I remember how on our first date she told me that she loves when man buy her flowers. But i never did. I was so dumb, for not doing everything for her. I should've bought her a million flowers, because that's what she deserves. I should've held her hand everytime i could, just to make her feel loved. To make her feel safe. But i was too dumb. To dumb to notice that I'm slowly losing her.
Should've gave you all my hours
When I had the chance
I never planned a date for us. She was always the one surprising me. I never made plans to spend time with her, she just always showed up. I remember how i was always smiling when I was around her, but I never realised that I loved her. And that was the biggest mistake i ever made.
Take you to every party
'Cause all you wanted to do was dance
She always wanted to dance. I never liked dancing. I always thought it was dumb. But I should've altleast tried to like it for her. I should've danced with her all the time, even if I didn't like it. I should've done it to make her happy. To make her smile. To make her laugh.
Now my baby's dancing
But she's dancing with another man
I went to this party with our friends. They said she wouldn't be there. But she was. And it broke my heart. It broke my heart to see her dance with another man. He had his arm around her waist and held her near to his body. And then she kissed him. I remember how she always kissed me. Her lips were so soft and they tasted so good. I always had butterflies in my stomach when i kissed her. And I should've realised i love her, but i didn't knew how it feels loving someone. I'm pretty sure tears were streaming down my face. She looked up and saw me and in her eyes I saw that she still loved me. And I want her back, more than anything. And I think she feels the same. But we both know that I'm not good enough for her. That I would break her heart, again and again.
You'll forget me, Dixie. You'll get married to the Love of your Life. You'll get kids. And I hope you get flowers everyday. I hope he holds your hand all the time. I hope you can dance with him, even if it's 3 am. I hope he loves you and I hope he knows how special you are. I'll never get married or have kids, Dixie. You're the only one I'll ever love.
And Dixie, I wanted to say Thank You. Thank you for making me feel loved. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for teaching me how to love.
I'll always love you,
Noah
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Hey guys. This is my first chapter, so please give me feedback. English isn't my first language, so if I wrote something wrong, please write it in the comments.
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