Undercover

Chocolate Cake

I run downstairs while Seth is still asleep. I can finally become one with my closest companion. Cake, but not just any cake, my beautiful chocolate cake! I search in all of his normal hiding spots trying to find it. He hid it good this time. I look in the tall back cabinets to find my love. I joyfully snatch the container out of the pantry to find it lighter than normal. Looking in the clear container I find a light green sticky note. "Close but no cigar. :)" I hear soft chuckling behind me and turn around to see my evil husband with that awful smirk of his on his face.
"Looking for something?" He asks, I narrow my eyes.
"If you've harmed my chocolate cake in any way..." He rolls his eyes at me.
"You need therapy Quil, this is getting out of hand." I stick my tongue out at him and go back to finding my true love. I feel warm hands wrap around me turning me around.
"Why eat cake when I'm ten times sweeter" He smirks daring me to respond.
"Because cake tastes amazing." Seth frowns at me before his lips form a playful smile.
"Oh well, I guess you will never find that cake."
I feel my heart start to break.
"But! Seth! I need cake! I can't live, breathe, or move without cake!" He laughs at me.
"Really? because it looks like you're living,
breathing and moving right now." I sulk to myself thinking of what to eat.
"Seth? Baby, don't you want your wife happy? I need cake!" His face falls. I see him step towards me with still eyes which cause me to freeze in place.
"I wish you needed me that much." He turns away and walks off shaking his head. I stand there frozen in place, I hadn't meant to make him upset. I just really like chocolate cake. I'm probably addicted, I get headaches without it.
I hear the sound of our bedroom door gently closing. I sigh and walk to our bedroom. I open the door and see him sitting on the side of the bed looking forlorn. My heart constricts at seeing him that way. Even the slightest bit of him being upset kills me, especially when it is because of something I had done. I walk over and sit beside him. I look at him silently unsure of what to say. Seth turns his head away making his jaw line pop out I stare at his delicate features and feel the tears well up in my eyes. I hurt him. Why do I always do this? Why does he still want me. I feel the moist tears slip out as I think of how I made him feel. I need you, I need you. My head hurt from all the thoughts stuffed in my mind. I hug him tightly, trying to tell him everything in just one simple action. But it was too simple I realise as I feel him stiffen at my touch not returning my attempt to comfort him. I pull away torn.
"Do you even love me?" He doesn't even look at me. I feel a danger in his voice that causes my heart to pound.
"Yes I do" I say quietly, trying to hide the sadness in my voice.
"I didn't mean to hurt you. I don't really like chocolate cake as much as it may seem and something so small couldn't ever take the place of you." I tell him gently. Maybe that worked.
"Really? Maybe I could believe you if you were so desperate for me that you'd cry when I'm gone. It's ridiculous I even have to hide cake from you!" Seth stands up and walks to a window staring out it.
"How should you know if I cry when you're gone? You don't see me when you aren't here!" I yell at him, my anger sparking. Why does he have to be so stubborn? Can't he see that I love him? Why in the world would cake be more important that my husband? Well it is definitely up there but not that high.
"I would know if you missed me because when I return you would want me to stay with you and not leave again but instead you eat cake! Or better yet ask me to buy you more!" Seth turns to Quil with pure anger and pain as his body tenses and his nostrils flare.
"Cake has nothing to do with this! Just because I eat cake doesn't mean I don't love you or don't care about you! If I didn't you would know, because I wouldn't be standing here right now trying to get you to stop being so stupid!"
"So I'm stupid because you would rather eat food then be with me!?! Why do I really think you're here trying to explain yourself? Because you can't find the cake that I had to hide from you so you would pay attention to me!" Seth steps closer to me anger coloring his eyes black.
I can feel his anger vibrate and I almost step away from him. My own anger however wins over my fear and I continue to yell
"Yes Seth! You are stupid! If I didn't care about you, I would be at the store getting chocolate cake and you would be here alone."
"No if you left you know I wouldn't be here when you got back. What do you want from me? Do I ask too much from you?" Tears shimmer in Seth's eyes. It's obviously an act, which makes my anger spark even more. I wonder if he even heard a word I said.
"Why is it always about you? What about me? Don't you realize that I have feelings too and maybe you aren't the only one that gets upset! For once could you just care about me instead of acting like everything I do is wrong!" I yell at him still, trying to keep myself from crying. Seth's face once again turns dark with anger.
"Fine. You're right. I'll go. Have a nice life Quil!" He grabs a pair of pants and a shirt before walking to the door.
"I'll get the rest of my stuff later." With that Seth runs from me grabbing his wallet and going downstairs stopping in search for his keys. I watch him go without a word. What else was I supposed to do?
When he leaves I cover my face with my hands and cry. My heart leaps when I hear the door open again. I scramble downstairs to see where Seth is, turning into the kitchen right as the door closes. My heart breaks and through blurry eyes I see a dark brown figure on the table. Slowly I walk to the table tears falling as my vision reveals a full chocolate cake with a note beside it.
"At least you got what you wanted -Seth" tears flood my eyes as I drop the note. Tears continue to fall for what seems like hours. He's gone. Why didn't I stop him?
A phone buzzes causing me to jump. I walk over to retrieve my phone to see who texted me. Maybe it's Seth.
"Queen". I unlock my phone seeing a picture of chocolate cake on the home screen. I whimper remembering Seth's home screen. A picture of me. Red hair flowing with the wind, arms spread out at the beach. "For once could you just care about me instead of acting like everything I do is wrong" The words flood my mind inducing an overpowering feeling of guilt. Looking down at my phone I go to my photos looking at the few pictures of Seth-there were seven. I count close to thirty pictures of cake. I am obsessed. I set one of Seth's pictures as my home screen; the picture was Seth leaning up against his -at that point- new silver car with dark blue jeans and a gray tee shirt with black sunglasses.
I decide to read Queen's message.
Queen: Hey Seth just came and picked up Jade. He took all her stuff and seemed really on edge. He sped out of the parking lot and drove away... Did you guys fight or something. It's not safe if he's upset to drive, even more so with Jade.
I feel my heart pounding, what if they get in an accident? What if they die? I feel panic course through me. I can't live without them. My family is what keeps me going, otherwise I really wouldn't have a reason to be alive. I rush upstairs and hastily throw jeans and a shirt on. I grab my keys, purse, and a pair of shoes and run out the door to my car. I turn the ignition and drive off, dialing a number I haven't dialed in a while.
"Will?" I ask as he picks up the phone.
"Can you trace Seth's cell?" I hear the surprise in his voice as he agrees.
"Yeah sure... Everything okay?" Should I tell him? No! I still don't trust him.
"Yeah, Seth left the house and I need to find him." I hear a sigh before light typing. Please find him. Please. Please.
"Hey, I um ... I'm sorry." My heart sinks
"I can't find him. He probably coded his phone to be untraceable." I stop my car on the side of the road.
"Is there any other way to find him?" My voice coated with panic but I don't care
"Not unless he has a tracking chip in him but as you know we can't have that, government and all... Quil are you in trouble?" Tears well up in my eyes.
"No I'm fine." My voice cracks giving me away.
"Alright, tell me when you're ready...bye". Click.
I close my eyes and take in a shaky breath. I can't freak out now, I have to figure out a way to find them. Not knowing what else to do I drive to Queen's house, maybe she can help.