5 more minutes // karl jacobsxy/n

Chapter 1- Where it all began

I got up from lying in bed after crying hours on end, I needed to stream as i hadn't for a while and my subs were going down. Picking some joggers up off the floor following with Quackity merch, I started getting naked in front of my mirror (to get changed). My eyes glanced over to my stomach that had been rumbling since I had got up which was about 5 hours ago. I haven't eaten since yesterday because every time I eat i feel as if i'm getting fatter and fatter. I just can't eat without throwing up. I squashed my belly and walked back over to my bed and started crying again. I'm so fat look at me, how could anyone love a pig like me. Wiping my tears away with the merch I put my clothes on. The soft fluff inside the jumper barely touched my stomach as i've been starving myself for a while although i'm just fat, I sat over in front of my pc and loaded twitch up. Whilst that was loading I tweeted I was going live to come join me and suprisingly after 5 minutes it had 200 retweet's! Twitch he finally loaded up so I set the stream to 'Just Chilling' and started it, so many people joined and so many people had subbed. I smiled and turned my camera on.

"Hey chat! Nice to see you all after what seemed like years," I struggled get my words out, the lump of tears was still at the back of my throat, "I'm gonna answer some questions for a bit and then log off if that seems cool with you guys!"

Some questions were silly and some were about what happened with my ex, Wilbur. I completely ignored them as the relationship was only toxic and it the reason my mental state is how it is now. As the Wilbur questions kept coming through the abusive memories kept flooding back to the point i nearly cried, i tried my best to keep it in and i was successful.

(Throwback)

"I'm really sorry baby, I just went out with Karl for a little to meet Quackity and Nihachu," I cried out load," I promise nothing happened I love you."
"You little whore I know what you was doing, you was out fucking Karl weren't you. You were on your knees for him begging for some more, what am i? A joke to you?", Wilbur boomed over the top of me with his fists ready to punch.
"No I'm not like that please listen to me, I would never I wouldn't be with you if i was", I pulled myself closer to the corner of the wall as Wilbur punched me in the stomach. I squeezed my belly in pain.
"Look at all that fat in there, how could i ever love someone just as ugly as you. Every time I look at you you i want to be sick!", He shouted over the top of me.
"Don't ever touch me again, It's over, pack your bags and leave. I don't want you here anymore you are too abusive, just go to Tommy's or something your not staying here and tell them why you are there," I stuttered as I struggled to get up from the corner,"Tell them you abused your girlfriend for going out with her friends, tell them you punched me because i'm telling the truth."
His fist curled up and his face turned bright red in anger, he pulled his fist back and punched me as hard as he could in the face. I ran to the bedroom and got all of his stuff and threw it out the window,
"Your stuffs out the window and im texting Tommy your staying there for a bit, never come back"
"FUCK YOU, KILL YOURSELF YOU DIRTY LITTLE SLUT!".
The door slammed shut.
It felt as if someone was stabbing knifes into my face and stomach, i couldn't help but cry and text Karl what had happened.
Karl quickly came round and sat there hugging me until i fell asleep.

(Throwback over)

I couldn't tell chat all of that, i didn't want them to throw hate at Wilbur or anything even though he deserved every single bit of it.
"Wilbur and I just decided to have a break for now, i hope you can all understand," I trembled all though no one noticed. The thought of him made me want to self harm all over again, he's made me into what i feared the most.
Donation from y/n'ssuperfan
"Hey you seem to have lost a rapid amount weight, you also seem to have been crying before stream. I hope everything's okay..."
I burst out crying and quickly ended the stream.

A few minutes later on discord

Karl

Heyyyyy, i was on your stream earlier and i heard the donation. I know you're still recovering but please eat for me. I love you so much and you mean the world to me, please for me

Thank you Karl <33 Ily2 :))

I was so exhausted, i have no energy at all but i needed to eat for Karl. My footsteps bounced from wall to wall until they stopped as i got to the fridge. My bony hands wrapped it's fingers tightly around an apple as it brought it up to my mouth. I took a bite and chewed slowly as the flavour swirled around my tastebuds. Out of nowhere after i swallowed i ran to the bathroom, i began throwing up until there was nothing left in my stomach. I just can't eat.

My footsteps echoed again to my room after a painful session in the toilet, i sat nervously on my bed as a my blood covered blade lay next to me. I wish i weren't fat, i wish i weren't ugly, i with i were good enough for him. I picked it up again.

(A/n, this is one of my first wattpad stories that are serious. I'm thinking of carrying this on if you guys enjoy it. Is there's any punctuation or spelling mistakes my bad i don't proof read!! Have a good day!)