US OR NOTHING

40.

Christopher Maurice Brown.
📍Los Angeles CA.

"Where is she ?!" I stormed down the hospital hall towards my mom, momma G, and Jasmine.

"They busy with her, we aren't allowed to go in yet." My mom said.

"Aye ?! Why the fuck we not allowed to go see my wife ?!" I stormed towards a random nurse in the hallway.

"Euhm I-"

"Chris go sit down." My mom dragged me back towards where they were sitting.

"Family off Jordan Jackson." A man came out of a room with a clipboard in his hand, I jumped up.

"That's us? Is she okay? Is the baby okay ?" I asked worriedly. He chewed his bottom lip looking at his clipboard before looking up at me with a sympathetic look.

"I'm sorry sir but the baby didn't make it." He spoke and my world stopped, the pain in my chest was unbearable and the tears in my eyes formed and were about to stream down my face like waterfalls.

"And Mrs. Jackson has to undergo surgery, she had a heart attack which resulted in the baby having a heart attack too. Unfortunately, the baby didn't make it, but we have to get the baby out off her stomach." Every word that he spoke broke my heart, even more, I dropped down onto my knees. Holding onto my head I cried on the floor.

After what felt like hours I felt numb, my heart was broken.

My first child and I didn't even have the chance to meet him or her, I can't handle the pain in my chest and I just want to see Jordan.

"Chris ?" Momma G snapped me out of my thoughts, I looked at her without answering.

I tried to say something but I couldn't my voice got stuck inside my throat.

It was now 5 hours later and I was still staring in space, the doctor came out and told us that the surgery was done and Jordan was awake.

Standing up from my seat I rushed inside, Jordan sat there on the bed in her hospital robe staring into space.

When she noticed someone was in the room she made eye contact with me and I saw a tear fall down her cheek.

I immediately walked up to her and we crashed into each other's arms, the both of us crying uncontrollably.

"I'm so sorry." She cried causing only more tears to fall from my eyes.

"It's not your fault." I croaked out, my heart breaks even more seeing her cry.

"Calm down baby you had a heart attack please try to calm down," I begged while softly stroking her hair.

There was a knocking on the door and the doctor walked inside with his clipboard.

"We cleaned her up, you guys are allowed to say goodbye." The doctor said.

"She ?" I asked with a small sad smile.

"It's a girl." He nodded, I wiped my tears and stood up from the bed.

The other 2 nurses brought an incubator inside and I caught a small glimpse of a small body inside.

Looking at Jordan, her bottom lip started trembling.

"I can't do it." She shook her head with tears falling down. I crouched down in front of her holding her hands in mine.

"You going to regret it if you don't say goodbye baby, I'm here for you and I know it's hard but I don't want you to regret things in the future. Please." I tried to control my emotions for her and looked her in the eyes.