diary

xvii

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lyrics couldn't stop ringing inside my head,

continuously boring confusions and overwhelming emotions whilst clinching the glass i just held

"just get over it, will you?" i told myself, seemingly annoyed;

after gulping the remaining liquor, i rose from my seat and once again feeling that void

look, i guess that's the word that i just could not put myself into

to look for my wallet and pay the drinks since time is due

slowly lifting a couple of bills then placing them on the counter

"damn shit, what a hell day to encounter"

i stood up, suddenly feeling nauseous,

whilst my two feet drag me to somewhere dusk and spacious

taking no the time to realize, i felt myself clung to the nearest street light pole

heavly breathing and heart's thumping as i am brought back to seoul

. . . . . .

you probably think it is easy for me

you probably think "he must be happy"

but you are wrong nobody knows

you don't know anything about me

i am lonely and i'm alone

i don't want to show this side

so i've been hiding it

now i don't need to see that face expression anymore

just with that it is enough for me

"...youngjae...?"