IMANI

SHIT

I didn't feel like waking up this

morning I have this terrible

knot in my stomach and I felt

like something bad was going

to happen if we all knew

everything in my life that was

bad and I didn't feel like

hearing any more bad news I

felt like I was going to snap I

woke up at 5 o'clock this

morning to get ready by six so i

can drop imani off at daycare

by 630 so that I can walk to

school and get there by 7:30 as I

sat down in my class I hear on

the announcements they call

my name to come down to the

principal's office I think to

myself what could I have done

now I really wasn't in the mood

for any bad news I walk the

slowest possible to the

principal's office I slowed down

the chair but I had not

recognized without my mom

was sitting there crying as the

principal was handing her

tissue after tissue they asked

me where have I been all these

days that I was at home taking

care of my baby it was no

surprise to the principal or

anyone else in the school about

them Imani so why were they

asking me all these questions I

had an attitude I snapped and

said probably because I have a

fucking baby and no one else

wants to help me take care of

as I heard my mom sob sob

inside as is as if she was never

even in the room I knew it hurt

her but I didn't care because

now she wants to show up and

act like he cares 5 whole

months and now she wants to

help me shit I've been doing

good all on my own the

principle says we're all here to

help you why are you acting

this way you were not like this

5 months ago I said 5 months

ago I had a house with heat is

staying with my baby we had

diapers and pampers no

problem but then my mom

wants to go out and be a

prostitute and be an alcoholic

and a druggy and now we have

to sign our way on our own

that's why I haven't been here

how about you ask her about

that but she sitting in the

corner sobbing and crying I left

the room and slammed the

door. Soon after I calm down

and realize what I have done to

hurt my mom and I was very

sorry I ran into the back into

the office and she wasn't there I

went to the house and then

leave it you know this is all

over the front door maybe what

they had to say to me was very

important oh my god I should

have listened I thought to

myself