Faking It

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It's been four month and we all where back in our school and when i first stepped in our new school my jaw dropped because it looked so so gooooood like wow . But today i won't go to school because we are officially celebrating my sister's one years old death day which goes really hard on my mom . She cried this morning and Olga had to make her eat while i just don't know how to express my feelings because i'm just not good at it never was and probably never will . I didn't cry not even a bit i just woke up feeling so empty that i couldn't do anything just sit on my bed and stare at the wall . I told everybody that i won't be going to school so they won't be calling me all day long and i will have some peace . The Girls wanted to come over but i didn't let them because they would go into depressed mode just like me and Mom did as we woke up .

Olga : I see you ate your breakfast 

Hazel : Yeah i did 

I told her softly and she looked at me before sat the tray down and sat next to me on my bed .

Olga : This day won't be easy for you nor your Mother but remember crying won't make you weaker Hazel just let it all out don't held it in 

She said then kissed my head and took the tray with her downstairs leaving me alone in my thoughts well until a knock was heard on the door and without waiting for my answer they walked in and i looked up to see my Brother Dante walking in with a sad smile .

Dante : Hey sis 

He greeted and i looked at him before throwing myself in his arms and hugging him tight .

Hazel : Where where you ?

Dante : College 

Hazel : Why didn't you come to her funeral ?

Dante : I was there but i just didn't wanted to be seen 

I nodded getting back on my bed and he sat down next to me .

Dante : How is Mom ?

Hazel : Broken i heard her cry this morning and Olga had to make her eat 

Dante : And what about you ?

Well the question came that i knew that i couldn't answer . How do i feel ? i don't even know .

Dante : Go back to sleep Hazel i will be here when you wake up 

( Time skip ) 

I woke up at 3 pm and i was really hungry but when i wanted to get up i saw my brother wrapped up on me sleeping so i quietly got out from his grip and walked downstairs to get some food .

Olga : Hazel sweetie Hayden was here but he stormed out from the house after 4 minutes he walked up there did something happen ?

Hazel : What he was here ?

Olga : Yes but then he stormed out from here like a mad man 

I looked at her and nodded .

Hazel : I'll just go over to this house and ask him what he wanted because i really need to get out from this house even for a minute 

I walked upstairs and changed quietly before i walked to my car and headed to Hayden's house and his Mom opened the door and let me in and with an sad smile i walked upstairs to his room .