You Again

Love exists...?

*Carrie's P.O.V*

One year. It's been one year. One year since Leo died. One year since Alexandria killed herself. It all startedon July 10, 2011. Almost one year since my brothers band was formed. Almost one year since he left me. I had met a guy named James and we almost lasted a year, but things happened and he ended up getting my best friend pregnant.

Leo was one of my 2 best friends. He had been my next door neighbor since we were in our mothers wombs. He was born a week before me. They were always the best of friends. He had died in a car accident my freshman year of high school. It was so horrible I nearly died myself. I remember his mother calling me, telling me that he was dead. I dropped my phone and burst into hysterics right then and there.

Alexandria, Alexa for short, was my best friend from Middle School through the middle of our sophomore year. She had gotten pregnant by James. You see, him and Alexa were a couple since the 7th grade, but she didn't cheat. No James raped her. When she texted me goodbye, and I didn't get a response back I called her mom and her mom went to check on her and when I heard a scream over the phone I instantly knew.

My thoughts were soon interrupted by my older brother.

"Carrie! Get on a black dress and get down here." Uh okay. That's odd.

I got on my dress and walked down the steps, only to see everyone else wearing something black.

"If I recall correctly, the last time I wore this dress was for Alexa and Leo's funeral. Why am I wearing it now?" I questioned grimly. I hated dressing up, especially for occasions like this.

"I just thought we could pay them a visit." Niall told me with a cautious look on his face.

I instantly broke out into a smile and happily agreed. There was a knock on the door and when Ashley went to get it I looked up and saw that it was Mr. and Mrs. Smith, Leo's parents, and Mr. and Mrs. Fitzgerald, Alexa's parents. I walked over to them and gave them a big hug.

"It's so nice to see you again! How have you been doing?" I asked them sincerely.

"It's been hard, you know losing your oldest child is always hard because they're the first you'll ever have." Mrs. Smith explained.

"I understand. How is Alecia, Landon, Rebecca, and Jason doing? I mean after all of this it must be difficult."

"They're all doing well. Alecia and Landon still doesn't really understand since they are only 4, but Rebecca and Jason seem to have a clearer mind of it."

"That's good, how old are Jason and Rebecca now?"

"Jason will be 13 on the 20 of this month and Rebecca will be 10 in August."

"That's really good!" I said with a smile on my face.

After we all had caught up for a little while Niall came back down and said it was time to go. We all gathered in the car and Leo and Alexa's parents drove separately. As soon as we got there we parked, got out and stood together. We promised we'd be there for one another if something happened.

I went to Leo's grave first and the moment I looked at, a tear rolled down my cheek. After that first one it's like they knew they were free and I collapsed. I was sitting on the ground with my head in my hands saying why over and over again. As in why did he have to go? Why now? Why my best friend? The moment I looked up at the sky and screamed why I heard footsteps. I recognized it as Niall. He just sat down with me and told me it'll be okay. It'll all be okay.

"But I don't get why he had to go. Why couldn't the people in the other car die?" I cried.

"That's just how things are." Niall said.

"But why. Niall he was my best friend, I miss him a lot. Why did God have to take him away. Why now?" I sobbed even more to the point where Niall was hugging me tightly.

"That's how God works. I don't know why he does what he does, but he does it. Maybe it's to help us get ready for grieving of other people, maybe it was their time and he had plans for them in heaven. Or maybe God wanted you to meet new people. He understood that you had everything you needed, but maybe it's an opportunity to open up your eyes and see things around you." Niall explained.

"You're right. Thank you Niall. I love you" I said with tear stained cheeks.

"You're welcome. Now let's head back, yeah?" He asked.

"Yeah" I smiled.

When we got back everyone hugged me and Leo's parents told me they missed him too. After that little explosion we all, as a little family, walked over to Alexa's grave and set flowers down along with a little quote.

"Every year a beautiful blossom will bloom. One day that blossom will die, and we will still remember the beauty it once held."

As we gathered in the car and headed home, Harry had me sit beside him. I laid on his lap as he ran his fingers through my hair. It soothed me and within minutes I was asleep.

*One hour later*

I woke up in my bed, Harry probably carried me up here. I had tear stains on my cheeks and makeup smeared everywhere. I threw my hair up in a bun and changed into leggings and put on a hoodie. I walked down the steps and sat down next to Harry. As soon as I sat down he put his arm around my shoulders and I laid my head on his lap. We sat there and just cuddled while everyone else was watching Divergent. I looked up and saw Niall and Ashley cuddling on the other couch, while Liam, Louis, and Zayn were on the three chairs around the room. I smiled to myself and knew what I was feeling. I was feeling family love. There's something about Harry though... It's not just a crush anymore. It's more than that. I think I'm in love with him, but he leaves leaves every year or so. I don't want to be hurt. I'm so confused. All I know is that I'm feeling something towards this boy I thought I'd never feel to award anyone and that's love.