I'm Not Her

chapter-17

Aarib's pov:
    
It's been 3 month we sorted all things between us  and I'm waiting for her answers,Finally home I felt as sat on couch Papa jiya said as ran to me and I hugged her. Baby didn't you sleep yet I asked her. No she said. Where's mom and yours I asked her. In kitchen she said and ran. It's already late what are they doing this time I thought as enter,Here them, doing chores but why this late I asked myself. Aarib beta you came mom said. Yes ma what are you doing two this late I asked them. we're gone to help saima Di's house to help her cause her Behan alliance family came Aysha said. Oh okay I'm hungry can you give some food I asked. Ofc come and sit I'll several you she said and served and mom done remaining works then left. How about groom and his family I asked. They are so good and Laila was lucky to have them well as them , they just want our Laila and treat her as own and groom seems so kind and practicing I pray what he would be inshallah she said.

Inshallah after all Laila getting married now and I'm happy for her I said . But we have to miss her and sure jiya will after she arrives to in laws home she said. Yes she's her favorite didi nah and always sticky with her I said. Saima and Laila were grew up alone saima were the one grew her Laila all this year since kid after her married nazir took responsibility of them and even he agreed to stay here for Laila since she won't be alone after her big sister Dept to in law house and  his family was took response- sibility of them since none besides them as well I'm happy all their suffer gone and live happily.

Aariba was her best friend. I bet she will jump to hear her friend gonna be marry I thought my sister as ChuckledI look Aysha whom dozed off and disturbed. Aashi i called her i usually call her like this. Yes she asked. Is anything bothering you I asked her. No nothing why? she asked. Cause you seems off of anything you can tell me I'll help you I asked her. No nothing I'm okay and she talked cutted when her phone pops, she looked as tensed but act cool. I looked her suspected , Something seems messy and I'll found that  I thought . Then I ate and she do my dishes then we left to room , she left to refresh and cone out then do my routine and came out. Jiya was laying usually as between us but wide awake. She pats her to sleep that's works too. She's till thinking something but I wonder what's that,One thing I know was she doesn't want to share that with me and I know she'll come around to tell me I hope that won't be bad I can let her calm now , then I talk with her I thought and dozed to sleep.

Aysha pov:
  
  When Aarib and I talking his message popped, that said  daneen blunts about he going about claiming me god , what you make me to stuck with that dork i thought as looked my phone . I bet he sensed my tension but let me come around but that never gonna be happen, cause I don't want Aarib to stuck with that mafia guy daneen, yeah he and his whole family was that was one I didn't able to do anything against him and I had no courage to told that too and of did that I won't be at like this point. I felt jiya tossed and I lay properly as give her some space to toss and turn. I sighed as looking two sleeping souls peacefully i smiled at them,I'm just Want to end all this it's been 3 month  torture from him I'm always afraid what I'm gonna do if he found all about me I thought as my phone vibrate I wish it's from my friend but him I prayed as look but that was him ,
OTP:

  Beast:
   baby girl, did you think I won't know anything about you ,how long you gonna hid your little poor family  from me huh.

Me:
  ..............

Beast:
Reply you're silence won't gonna be work if you deny anything that gonna be true anyways..

Me:
  Please don't do anything to them and why are you doing this to me even knew all about me please let me live alone.

Beast:
   You pleads Don't work and I want you and your mine and I love you bae so I won't let go or let them be with other which is mine and remember one thing if you do any wrong move you should knew what gonna happen since in a mafia am I right ...

Me:
  What are you want from me , I didn't do anything to you then why you torture me I'm even forget you long ago why did you always show up and do my dark past with you to remind can't you enough of ruined my half life...

Beast:
   Oh just clam down bae it's not good for you and my heart too making my loving one to make cry and you don't able to do anything to make me go back and if you want to stop all then come with me

Me:
   Seriously are you out of mind? , are your crazy how can I and I won't do that even I have a chance or reason and I won't be yours never ever get this through your head and I can't endure this anymore..

Beast :
   You should untill i make you leave all and come up to me and I'm going up sleep don't forget to show up in my dreams okay bye love  (went offline)

Why Allah this mess to me, his atrocities we're grew up day by day and don't let me peace. What I'm gonna do I'm helpless now only Tawakkul on Allah to make him vanish but I have to do something from my side to hoping only good won't work , I have to think what can I do for this war of mine yes that's to me, he asking me to ditch my husband and my family for him and forcing me to do big sin and trying to make me a big sinner how can I do that and myself and mind won't let that I'm not even know him and that haram thing on him can't he understands that , I can't understand what I did  to make him like this or even I don't know what I did to him. I only love my Aarib not him or no one I want to be with my husband not with no one and I didn't even confess to my husband but this all striking when I'm decided to tell him and end his waiting for my reply but  What the heck I'm going to do with daneen and manage and protect all, I internally screaming and grab my hair in frustration.

Keep tossing and turning for sleep if that not work so I starts to walk here and  there.  When Every morning I'm afraid and pray all my family back as sound. I didn't even know did I walked through whole night I looks time it's time to pray Tahajjud prayer I did Adan calls for fajr prayer. I did ablution and prayed. Then I shook him to pray and he woke then left to masjid and came after some time. Back to sleep that was his usual routine .

Didn't you sleep he asked.I did very well I said. It's not seems as you say he said. May be you still sleepy back to sleep I said . For that you have to sleep too if you won't then I won't  he said. I'm wide awake I said.  Just lay still I sleep he said. Okay I said. Went to go my side . Where are you going he asked. To lay I said. Come and lay here I want to sleep besides you he said. What I asked. Come or I will come your side he said.
No I won't then don't sleep I said as searched my phone I reminded I put that on his side table when shook him. I went to his side and picked my phone. He smirked oh no didn't he get wrong thing I didn't even think fully he pulled me and I landed on him and turn me to face him by put his both arms around mine as blocked .

Let me  I said. No just stay he said. Why are doing this now and she was at edge I said try to look jiya. She safe and can you give some time for me too he asked. What I give time for you too I said. No that's not considered as spending time with me as doing your work he said. Then what you want I ask . Like this just us for sometime holding each other or talking together  and open up he said. About that I'll agree but not now until I reply you I said budged more . Don't ,if you  budged more we will wake our princess  and I can't wait to do all this holding you or anything don't get me wrong after your reply if you're answer gonna be no I can mold you to accept me nah he said.  Oh really when I woke I decided to told you my answers but you make me postponed I'm sorry you have to wait I said .

Really then tell me don't make me wait anymore it's not fair bit waiting for so long freaking month he said.  You're looking pity too what can I do now let me think I said as fake think but I'm damn sure I'll gonna say yes to him but I'm enjoying his suffer to wait for my reply. Think well but tell me soon he said as slightly closed his eyes. Hmm... Take it as y... Wait , did you have a answer for what you asked me if I ask you I asked him. Ofc I have but ladies first he said . For this type gents first I said. Yes I did fell on you now happy he asked with smile. Really I asked him. I can't describe what I'm feeling and forget all things  I'm so happy now . I did and with my whole and as you now you tell me  he asked me. Then take it as yes I said covered myself with quilt.