Adulthood

Intro, or some shit

Wild, I'm currently sitting on the floor of a mini, "stoner pad" I guess you can call it. Met this girl on tinder right? Or was it bumble, get them confused all the time! The women are lining up lmao! But for simple chatter, a date here or there, maybe some slight spoiling before I maybe can get laid. I swear I just got a notification that I have a new match on tinder. Fml... Anyways back to what I was saying before that tangent. Adhd, rough stuff. I matched with this girl, came over last night and hung out, smoked and watched movies. She threw her ass back a couple times, but I just was not in the mood. First time meets aren't a, "fuck time" for me. Was supposed to be getting tattooed tonight, but asked the girl and offered to give them tats. They were down, so we mobbed over. Got here and started talking, introduced my homie to them and just caught a vibe. Smoked up and started. The mom came in, she is such a milf!! I compliment her and shower her in praise. She practically sat on my lap today. I played my game, I knew what position to rest my arms from the position I was already laying in. The biceps and tattoos all just popped right under the lighting. Every muscle fiber rippled. I saw the sweat trickling her upper forehead as she fixed her hair frantically. She thinks I don't know how to play games, trust me darling I'm a pro. The hundreds of precious hours spent in conversation with a beautiful being. Weather it was 2:00am in the morning for a smoke sesh and long deep wound healing convos, to all day walk and do stuff, homies for a bit, maybe fuck once or twice (or 47 in the span of 2 days). The perks of staying physically fit, doing meditation and spirituality, consecutive dieting and exercise. It really helps with stamina". Wait caught myself going on a tangent, back on track. After I reread all of this and figured out what it was. Oh tattoos! Yeah so he is tattooing the girl I'm supposed to be fucking with, and she is dead locked on him. I see the faccination. He is a very handsome man. I'm trying to help him with his style and with overall confidence. Help his life path a bit. Going to start training him soon, put him on a steady meal plan, and get on his ass about coming with me to the gym. Oh yeah but back at it, I wanted to write about this because it's literally my life. Weird, mainly because you are reading this on the, "raw" as if I was speaking to one of my homies. This whole concept is strange to me to make books, or want to meet others who may vibe with me. But at this point in life, I'm kinda where I really want to be. I want to freaking grow and be amazing, love every single fucking soul, and heal as many women who were hurt by boys who didn't understand. That's all I can say, they just haven't lived long enough or had the right achievements in life unlocked. I want to take y'all with me on a journey of my life, present and past. If you are down to vibe, comment or something so I get notified and get sidetracked on this app and start writing instead of doing some other stupid task. But yeah, just sitting here against this wall... burned my hand on the nail when I was taking a rip. Used my hand to cover it instead of the cover thing. Kinda high, I'm enjoying writing mainly because it's a distraction from the sexual tension in the room emitting from the other two. Great tiiiiiiimmmmeeees!!!! I could be fucking the shit out of my friend with benneffits. That's kinda new, don't know how to feel about it yet. I definitely don't like going places with her... cock block because they instantly assume she is my girlfriend. Like no love, she is just here to get railed. Want to be in line? I know it's stupid, or at least that's your oppinion. Maybe not, who knows but either way I live me. Free, and happy. I have been single for over a year and a half! I have grown as an individual so much in that time! I swear my ex would not recognize me. Nobody really does anymore. I walk past old, "friends" more like aquaintencance. They don't bat an eye in my direction. I am finally reaching the point I have been trying to. Happiness!!!! Will probably be getting tattooed tomorrow, hopefully finish the half sleeve upper arm and move on to the other arm or some shit. I'm kinda not high now sooooo, imma go smoke. The next part will be up soon. Tell me what y'all think. :)