Destined By Fate

Diary

Y/n pov:
Coming back to my room I sighed leaning against the door. A tear escaped my eyes as I remembered everything that I tried so hard to forget. It's been years but still I'm not able to move on.
( Ok so what all is written in italics is her recalling her past)

I opened the window and the cold wind embraced me. Looking out at the dark night sky I had so many thoughts in my head. This my new home in Daegu. I'm starting to live alone. Father said I have grown up enough to live alone. " Am I really ?" I don't know. Why can't I just live with my brothers. * Sighs* yeah it's so far from here. Is this going to be a new start. Something like a new chapter in my life. The moon.... Yes it looks like the moon is gazing at all the city lights down here without realising that he has his star beside him. Life of people is always like this. They get attracted to what they see on the outside.
I don't know why today I'm thinking like something is about to happen soon. Shrugging off my thoughts I went to my bed and layed there. A smile appeared on my face feeling the warmth beneath me giving me cosy and calm vibes. My eyes were fixed on the ceiling. Everything looks perfect but still I don't know what I'm missing. I can't find the answer to it. * Sighs* . My mind wandered around so my thoughts and suddenly I remembered the diary my mom gave me before she died. Getting up and wearing my cardigan I went out downstairs and started searching for it in all the boxes which still need to be unpacked. Finally I found it.

An unknown excited feeling rushed over me seeing it in my own hands. I have never opened it. Coming back to my room I sat on my bed and opened it randomly. Blank.. all the pages are blank except the first page. It said..

Y/n~ah I know u r reading this
Don't worry everything will be fine.
What belongs to u will definitely find you
Just have patience and believe it no matter what
Never give up dear
Life is never too easy
It will make u happy only after making u strong
Nothing happens accidentally
Everything has it's own meaning
Whatever questions you have
You are the one who have the answers  too
U will understand this one day
Love you my baby❤️

I closed it and cried my heart out. Love you too so much mom. I can't understand what u actually meant but this is so precious for me. Thank you mom. I don't remember when I fell asleep.
I woke up next to find myself hugging the diary and sleeping. I stared at my own reflection at the mirror. Tear stained  cheeks. I looked so pathetic as if someone will think I went through something horrible. Shrugging off I went to get ready for my first day in my new school.
After one week~
Sighing for the 100th time I looked at it lying on my bed. I don't know what to do with this.  Maybe I should write something in this????
Ok how about me thinking as if I'm writing this to someone special....
( The ones in bold letters are those that she writes in her diary)
Let me be honest I don't know where to start actually.
Ok let me address u as oppa for now till I get u new name
I'm y/n ....u know my life is pretty complicated and messy. I have my loved ones my dad and my brother but I always feel I'm missing someone.. someone I have never even met. I know it sounds weird but it's the truth.i have so many problems but I don't have anyone to share with.....maybe that's what led me to this situation....writing something to someone who doesn't even exist... I'm kinda not alone but lonely.u know what I'm not even cold. Like I'm not someone who doesn't know to express feelings it's just that I don't know to express my worries. I myself can't understand what my problem is. I don't know where to start when I try to share my problems with anyone and that made me silent...that suppressed my voice...my words and eventually i ended up looking strong in front of others....I don't like to cry in front of someone ... I always cry behind the doors..I know I'm not strong..to complete in a sentence I don't know myself.
I'm sorry its my first time writing something and I ended up writing something like a crap ... it's just my emotions took the best part of me. I'm sorry oppa.
Well goodnight next time I will promise to give u a name. * Finger heart*