I can't be average because that's not enough. I'm not aloud to have friends or fun because I'm supposed to be picture perfect. My emotional state doesn't matter because if i focus on not crying instead of homework or house work I'm considered selfish. I have to be a grown up as soon as I turn 13 or else I'm being a spoiled brat. I can't lose my virginity before marriage cause I wont be praised like boys are I'll get bullied and shunned. They say it's okay to do this but when I do I get judged or mocked. If I feel like hurting myself no one will know because i know they won't care. If I think in anyway sexual I'm a dirty slut. I can't go out and have teenage experiences cause I have to focus on my grades and family because me time isn't something a family should have. I can't share secrets because everybody believes someone else has to know and then it's everywhere. I can't act how I feel because if people know I'm struggling I'll be called weak and selfish. I can't do anything but be perfect or I'll get judged, punished, or hated. There's no such thing as me or my emotions. I have to be nobody to become somebody. I can't have feelings. I can't be myself. I can't trust. I can only be perfect.
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