Rant book

Crush part 1 😙✌🏻

Ok so I really like this boy and we are next to eachother in loads of classes bc our names are next to eachother on the register. He will never feel the same though bc he claims he is straight and I am agender and he's never liked anyone (according to what he's told me). Loads of people think he likes me but I can't be sure bc I will just get my heart broken. He is so sweet and funny and just overall a great person. My friend (who's trans and bi) claims that he was homophobic but he never has been bc we often talk/text about it. I text him white a lot tbh. I can never get him out of my head. I keep thinking about one time when we compared hand sizes in science (he has tiny hands and I have big ones bc he is way smaller than me even though I am almost like a year younger than him). We had music earlier in school and I told him it was mesmerising to see him play the piano and he like did this weird blush smile and said something like 'probably bc I am so bad at it' like bitch stfu no you're not you're better in music than me. Also the main bad thing is that I hate relationships and don't want one. 👁💧👄💧👁