Journal for boredom

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One day Amity was going to visit the owl shack. Frying up owls was her favorite!!!!

Hey Adora, how's it hanging 

I found out that everybody talks (×3) it started with a whisper and that was when I kissed her and then she made my lips hurt I could hear the chit chat take me to your love shack mamas always gotta back track when everybody talks baaaaaaaaaaaaacccckkkkk 

Straight hair straight a's straight forward straight path I don't cut corners I make a point a point to be on time head of the student council I don't black out at parties I jam to Paul McCartney if you ask me how I'm doing I'd say well hm I was adopted when I was two (wow so cool) my parents spoiled me rotten often I ask myself what did I do to get as far as I've gotten a pretty girl walks by my locker  my heart gives a flutter but I don't dare utter a word cause that would be obserd behaviour for little miss perfect nananananananana no i cant risk falling off my throne lalalalalalalala love is something I don't even know straight hair straight a's straight forward straight girl little miss perfect that's me one night my friends stayed over we laughed and drank and ordered something about her drew me in (What it's totally platonic) hat night was so exciting her smirks were so enticing hours speed by like seconds then what happens is iconic she takes a sip I bite my lip she tells a joke I nearly choke she braids my hair I sit there blacking out for the first time next thing I know I loose control I finally kiss her but oh no I see a face in my window then my brain starts to go nanananananananana no you can't risk falling off your throne lalalalalalalala love is something you don't even know nananananananana you can't risk falling off your throne lalalalalalalalala looooooovvvvveeeeeeeee you don't even know rewind infuse amnesia deny the truth that's easier you're just confused believe her when she says there's nothing there it never worth it when you're liiiitttttllleeeee miiiiiisssssss ppeeeeeeeerrrrfffeeeeeeeeccctttttt 

I see the way she looks at me but i pretend that I don't see it's easier if I let the tension subside I've seen it in the books I read a magic that you cannot see there's no limitations they wear it with pride but the characters I read never act or look like me I cant depend on them to lead me through the right door and what's the point of falling when I know I'm only stalling because I have to go back home where I'm just one in the herd tripping over my words trying hard to go with the grain keeping the quirks in my brain I'm on the brink of discovery I think but what if I'm dreaming that's what it seems like cause this girl thinks I'm part of her world and that new territorys scary if I turn the handle am I asking for a scandal should I try to be ordinary Mmbaaahhh I've Always Been a littlke odd the only  oea inside the pod that's not an expression I'm guessing oh well aah see that's exactly what I mean I'm just as awkward as I seem plus she makes me nervous I hope she can't tell what is it she sees in this cluster clump of me or could it maybe be I'm going crazy and hey who am I kidding this isn't some sweet beginning just a detour to the end than back to the herd tripping over my words trying hard to go with the grain keeping the quirks in my brain I'm on the brink of discovery I think but what if I'm dreeaammiiiiinnnggg do I rewind induce amnesia pretend I didn't see her succumb to stupid fear or just believe in my heart why play a part why follow the herd why not trust in my words don't wanna go with the grain why try to make myself plain I'm on the brink of rediscovery I think so what if I'm dreaming I like the scene that I'm in and this girl is a pert of this world the thought of being normal is far more scary so I'll be brave and I'll be kind I'll make a choice and change my mind I will mess up all the time they'll say I'm weird but I'll be fine I'll be anything but ORDINARY