When bad habits come back, it leaves you with worries and feeling self-aware. But when your boyfriend spots this, he just has to prove you wrong.
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As a kid all you heard when it came to you and your little habit was, "Stop it."
Picking and biting at your lips was something that had haunted you for as long as you could remember. Cracked and broken skin on your lips were almost a constant and it haunted you still even now.
After you'd been ill with the flu or a cold, or something your lips liked to taunt you. Even just after being out in the cold for too long without applying some lip balm.
It was a fucking pain.
And because they used to be in such a bad condition, you just assumed that once the dead skin was off you'd be fine. So picking at them and biting them seemed like it was helping.
Oh how wrong you were.
So that was when you got constant 'Stop it's from your parents and when you caught yourself doing it you said a silent 'stop it' to yourself.
And the past few days you'd fallen back into that bad habit because you'd just got over a cold. So when you were at work today, stressing out over a client, you caught yourself staring at your laptop with your elbow rested on your desk and your fingers on your lips, picking at a little piece of dry skin you'd found.
Stop it.
Then you caught yourself biting them later when you were trying to actually make the custom design for your client. Another 'stop it' filled your mind.
Then again on the phone to another client who was being rude.
Stop it.
And again, when you were driving back home to your boyfriend who'd just flew back in from a series of shows he'd done.
STOP IT!
All you wanted to do was be able to kiss your boyfriend, but no way would he want to go anywhere near you if your lips split. Thankfully the first day or two when Matty was back home your lips held out.
You tried your best to control your habit and with Matty distracting you from work stresses it became a little easier. But when you were at work and he obviously wasn't around you fell back into old habits.
And after a particularly stressful day at work, you did the worst.
You accidentally split your lip.
Never had you not wanted to go home to Matty more. He was affectionate with you in the best of ways and he almost always wanted a kiss and a cuddle when it was just the two of you alone together.
But you didn't want to kiss him with your lips in the state they were. Despite trying every lip balm, lip scrub, and moisturiser, nothing had helped over the past few days they still fucking split.
