UNPLANNED FOREVER

CHAPTER 4

CAMILLA

one of my favorite things about living alone is you can get back at home and start undressing just by your door. I was exhausted not that had started working right away since I didn't get any call from my boss in the afternoon about any tasks as he had communicated. I was exhausted from all the walking around in the company for my induction , I had to learn all the offices, stuff, and familiarize with the work place. I also went through my handover process through Anabel the receptionist who I had come to learn isn't a bitch after all I guess we are all tryna make a living and are exhausted.

I threw my shoes the moment I stepped at the door I started unzipping my dress I swear whoever came up with rule of decent clothes for work had one of the worst suggestions cause uncomfortable doesn't even describe it. I really needed a warm shower , at least my apartment was good enough to offer me such comfort so I headed straight to the shower. my thoughts drifted to my day and they landed on one thing I told myself I wasn't going to think about 'Davlin' . I couldn't even recognize the reaction of my body to the man today.

I wasn't one to react to a man just because he had marvelous hands and beautiful hair but today I kinda questioned my beliefs for the first time. this man was insanely handsome. he had beautiful blue eyes which made him two times more appealing. how my body reacted when I was in front of him I cant quite explain either cause not even jack got such reactions from me even when we were madly in love.

maybe I actually just missed sex its been over a year since I had it , me and jack stopped having sex after our marriage turned into a dog cat fight. davlin made me feel like a sex starved 23 year old cause I was this closed to jumping on the man when I saw him.

my stomach growled I was hungry I didn't have lunch cause I was too busy to even notice it was lunch. I got out of the shower and headed inside my room. I settled for a white tee and black tights.

I headed straight to the fridge to find something to eat and I was greeted with a box of milk and bottles of water " way to go cam" I didn't even have some food stocked in the fridge now. I really need to start taking care of myself honestly.

I grabbed my phone from the kitchen counter and checked the time , it was 9:30 still early for me to go to the convenience store and get myself something.

I went back to my room and grabbed my purse and a black hoodie and headed out. I was going to go to the convenience store which was just a small walk from my place , a snack would be enough for tonight and tomorrow I will make sure I go grocery shopping and live like a normal human.

I put on my airpods and played I will by music travel love one of my favorite duo their music is so calming and just so peaceful.

my love for books and music was one of the reasons I majored in arts. I was not and I'm still not someone who is good with brushes and my hands . I just wanted to understand the world of it. one thing every artist would agree on is the fact that art is a whole separate planet which its main aura is calmness and peace. when I read books I feel a certain sense of separation from the existing world I im not a writer but I would actually enjoy working for one same way how I cant sing but I would enjoy being a manager for a musician. this was one of the reasons I had applied for Markoms corporation I love seeing people draw and design just imagining being part of a beautiful drawing which in the end turns out to be an amazing or historical building makes me excited I call it an achievement turn on.

not being able to work after I graduated messed me up extremely, though I tried to hide it in front of jack I was really not okay. At first when he brought up the idea I refused until he told me its him or the job which in the end made me end up 23 and jobless. thinking of it now I guess I was just one stupid immature kid who was desperate for love and emotional safety after having lost her parents.