2 AM H.S

Chapter 1

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️

This chapter contains drug use and attempt of suicide

Amelia

The coldness of my body is is becoming more and more noticeable, the sirens are going off and I can hear the screams of my best friend Olivia. I can feel her hands on my skin and my body aches for her she never knew it was this bad no one ever did.

"It's just one line, it's not even as much as you think it is I'll be okay" I say over the crowd of sweaty people dancing in the club there body's are so close that you can't even see between them .

Olivia just nods "only one time though okay no more after this I trust you Amelia"

I can see the sadness in her eyes she wants me to get better but I just can't I'm so tired. And honestly I could get used to the feeling when I do drugs I'm always okay I never have a negitive thought in the world..

She walks away heading to get more drinks as I take a deep breath and push the pills in my pocket I have 7 I can do this I know I can. I look over at the table and push the metal up to my nose feeling that soothing coldness that I just love and I breathe in sniffing and letting everything take control.

"I'm back babes" Olivia says, I just nod and down the glass of whiskey she brought to me

I stand up and bring her with me to the dance floor as she sips her drink one hand in the air and the other on my waist guiding me as our hips sway

We start getting tired around 3am and she motions to the door as I walk hand and hand beside her

Olivia Jones has been my friend from the time we were born our parents knew each other and were best friends in high school. We do everything together she was even my first kiss. She is the only person I have and I only ever want to be around her I've talked to her about moving to England with me, but she's gonna stay on California and study forensics.

My breathing starts deepening as soon as the cool air hits me and all I can do is look at all the lights, my body was so numb I almost didn't realize I was walking if it wasn't for Liv then I would have kept walking into the street she pulled me back and looked at me dead in the eyes

"Are you searching for a suicide mission what the hell is wrong with you"

I just smile and pull myself away from her whispering "oh if only you knew"

The walk back to my house was long and tiring my dress kept rising up like it was telling me it was time to come off so as soon as I got into my house I ran up the stairs and started stripping  grabbing some comfortable clothes so I can shower  sweat pants and a tee shirt that said "love me better" on it.

Basically screaming I holler at Liv "I'm taking a shower I'll be out in a few" she doesn't say anything which is my cue to go

I turn on the water all the way to the hottest temperature it would go to, as I start undressing, the mirror and I are no friends so I turn and face the shower curtain still afraid to turn around I look down instead and see all the scars that my body carries. Tears sting my eyes and I remember I shoved the pills in my dress pocket

I reach for them and pull them out finding my metal as I line them all along the counter and start smashing them up looking at them, it's the longest row I've ever seen...

I take a deep breathe and breathe in sending the white powder through my body I take a quick look in the mirror sewing my dead eyes as I step into the shower laying in the bathtub the water falling on me

"Good bye world"

I remember the water being turned off and all the screams from Olivia the 911 call in on a report of suicide

"She's bearly breathing I didn't think it was this bad" she says so quietly you almost can't hear it.

No one ever knew how bad it was I couldn't handle the fear, pain or the trauma anymore I was done I gave up..

"Your gonna be ok, your gonna be okay" is the last thing she says

Sirens scream through my ears it's the last thing I hear...

I hope you enjoyed this as much as I did xoxo

~abby

Amelia's dress

Olivia's dress