Poetry

come to me.

darling, come and put your feet up.
this is our place.
you do what you want. 
we can sleep on the couch, 
we can stay up until 3am. 
we can wake up at 2pm 
on a Sunday as the alcohol
starts to wear off. 

i just want to lie here with you.
die here with you. 
live here with you. 
just hold me close, 
the bed's only warm because you're
next to me. 
you try to get up, saying you
need to go to work. 
i whine like a child. 
when it comes to you, 
I feel like a teenage girl 
all over again.

baby, 
take me by the hand. 
hold it tight, 
put it against your chest. 
i want to feel your heart beat
so I know you're not a dream,
because you sure as hell feel like one. 
you can't go. 
you can't be gone. 
you're mine
and I am yours. 
i have seen your heart
and mine now belongs to you. 
only you. 

just take a breath. 
let me hear you. 
i want to hear 
your soft chuckle, 
the one that escapes when you see
me waking up in the mornings, 
my hair a mess. 
i want to hear your smile. 
i want to feel your smile.
warmer than the feeling i get 
when I think about you. 

remember that night? 
that party that I didn't want to go to?
that's where it all started. 
why me?
why a house at 11pm?
why alone?
i think it was destiny. 
or a coincidence
either way, 
I've got a hold on you. 
and I'm not letting you go. 

remember when I used to paint?
i never used the oils on anyone
except for you.
i use my best colours on your portrait,
I save the last french earl grey for you,
because I know how much you love it. 
i save my body for you. 
my laugh for you. 
my joy for you. 

my dearest, 
you are everything. 
i long to feel your touch. 
i long for your calloused hands to trace my scars
as you tell me that I am beautiful. 
i long for your eyes to look at me
in the same way that I look at you. 
i long for your hands to caress my hair
as you lie and stare into my soul. 
i long for you to draw out the secrets i hold deep within myself
because i want to share them with you, 
but the door to them is locked, 
and you hold the only key. 

come to me. 
we don't have much time left together. 
before you know it, 
i will be gone. 
and i will never see you again. 
i want to live in your eyes, 
because you already live in mine. 
come to me. 
because your smile has me so weak
that i cannot come to you.