Yeah so the Brittany, Shawn thing sorta got me in a pissy mood. I've been rude and unfriendly to everyone for the past week. A whole week, and yet all he ever did was look at me. Hanna was so occupied with Taylor that she berley talked to me, it has been like that for all the girls actually.. "Steph, cheer up, we miss you." Nash says, handing me the icecream. I have been on a food marathon ever since, and I worked it off afterwords. "I don't understand why I feel se shitty anyways, he was an asshole" I politly respond. People at school started to get scared of me, I came to class, but always late. Even in english, I couldn't stand sitting beside him so I sat beside Taylor. "He still does like you." Nash says, my insides felt gooey at the sound of that, "Well if he goddamn liked me so much he would of talked to me!" I snap back, getting up for the couch. The tears came, the warm liquid rolling off my cheeks. Nash got up and hugged me, petting my hair. I loved Nash, as a bestfriend of course! I spent the past week with him and his girlfriend. "Shhhh, Steph, he'll call soon.." He whispers. " I-I *sniffle* He woooont *sniffle sniffle* He doesnt care. *sobs* " I say back, trying to talk, he let go of me and tilted my head up. He brushed the mess of my hair out of my face and wiped my tears. "I swear, if he doesn't do something I will rip the probably small dick of his, and shove it up his ass." Nash says, the anger in his eyes rose up. It did make me feel better, the way he took care of me like that. Tommorow was monday, I started with english. Wonderful. I curled my hair, put shorts and a polo on and left my house, I knew that the moment I left, I would regret it. Aaron looked at me, not saying a word. "May I help you?" I snap at him, now standing in his face. "Look, I know you're mad and shit, but stop being such a bitch." He reponds, he was facing his locker now. "Shut up." I said, slammed the locker door shut and left. Aaron and I never argued, never spoken like that to eachother, it was wierd. Shawn passed with his gang of friends, they all became quiet the moment I passed. "Oh fuckoff, do y'all need a picture or something?!" I say loudly, right in the center of their gang, a few shook their heads, some stood in aw and the rest looked at Shawn. "Steph... Can we talk?" Shawn says, breaking through this zone of awkwardness. I nodded as he took me to the same place as the first time we met. I looked at him, he was standing againced the wall with his head down. " I fucked up." He says, avoiding eye contact. " And I'm a fuckup." I add, which was the truth. " I just.. I don't.... Know.. " I just stared and him." Well heres the thing shawn, if you can't be a player, then don't play the game," I say, he was playing me all along anyways. " I have tried to talk to you since 7th grade Steph! I sure as hell wasn't playing you." He shouts back. "Says the boy who's still hung up on his slutty ex!" I quickly say, being defensive. It doesn't make sence, if he wanted me since 7th grade, then why was he still in love with Brit? "Oh Shawwwny poo! Why are you talking to that mess of a girl? You always say shit about her!" Brittney says, she had her arms around his waist, I didn't even see her there. The words sank in... He talks behind my back to this "thing"! "Well I think were just about done here." I say, leaving the gang of assholes. Hanna came up to me, " Are you okay?" She asks, looking at my bright red face. "Taylor is there trying to talk to them, do you want to talk?.." She asks again. "Can you, like, go get Nash?" I respond, he's really the only one I want to talk to right now. She looked at, nodded and then walked away. I was furious, and serprisingly heart broken, I felt dead, unwanted and betrayed. I really didn't know what to think anymore...
